This is the Story of my Life

Busy

2012-02-02T12:53:00.000-05:00

Currently, we are pretty much occupied all the time.
Most of the time we will be discussing on what is our business plan and etc..
Well, my attention span won't last long.

Sorry hun and thanks for having a very huge patience.
So, there's nothing big to update but our opportunity for this year is very promising.

Let's hope for the best and all the best to you out there.

Cheers!

HD

Schranz

2011-12-14T13:37:00.000-05:00

Its been a while since i could hold my head up high. hahaha..
NO thats not it.

Actually, its been a while since i listen to Schranz!
Industrial piece of shit.. claimed some people...

But yeah industrial kind of sound. Kinda.

Sounds like you are riding an awesome TRAIN! :D
Believe me.

HD

Ruffles & Leather

2011-12-08T03:05:00.001-05:00

Ruffles & Leather.
Its now an online store! :) Not only a blog post LOL!

http://www.facebook.com/RufflesandLeather

<3

We are marketing and selling Coach's Handbags, Guess Watches, Royal Albert Tableware and Longchamp.

Coach and Guess are being shipped from the United States! Hooooah!
Royal Albert Old Country Roses are from UK along with 100 Years with Royal Albert collection.
and Longchamp Handbags are from Europe. :)

Will add more products such as Vera Wang and Port-Merion tableware

Remember, create multiple income sources. This is one of our business venture. Feel free to check it out! :)

Cheers

HD

Goofy. Rest In Peace My Dear.

2011-10-29T02:02:00.003-04:00

After nearly a month fighting with kidney failure.

Goofy.

At 12.40pm 29th October 2011, she left us for a better place.
She has been in and out of the vet.
The last time she went to the vet, the doctor told us that she has 1-2 weeks left.
I told Goofy to wait for my mom to come back from NYC.
She did...
She understood what i said.
She was fighting like.. she just doesn't wanna go yet.
She can't drink and we have to jab her with water everyday.
Until last night.. it shattered me seeing her condition.

I told my mom that she is waiting for you to come back.
My mom messaged me to tell Goofy that she loves her.
I shed tears when she told me that.

I told Goofy that its alright to go.
Mama said she loves you.
Its alright to not wait for mama.
Approximately, 12hours after that, my siblings and i were right beside her, to be with her for her last breath.
That just made me burst in tears.

After 9 - 10 years, she lived with us.
Since she was born. :(
She is a part of this family. She is like my younger sister.
Years! Our joy and our tears.
:'(

I'm sorry Goofy for my wrongdoings.
I'm sorry if i didn't take care of you properly.
I'm sorry if i made you stay longer.
I'm sorry if it hurts for you.

Look at her. She was alright in the pic.
She was sooooo close to us all.
She likes to jump and sleep on us.
and she purrs.
She was the most girliest among her siblings and cousins.
She likes to groom herself every time.

I miss you already Goof Goof :'(

I will always remember you and I love you soooooo much!!

Thank you for being a part of our life.

You will always be in our heart.

Rest in Peace Goofy. I love you and i miss you already and i sayang you.

I will see you soon :)

HD

ROCK BOTTOM

2011-10-19T15:33:00.000-04:00

Rock Bottom.

I know that today i reached my rock bottom.

It has been 4+ months since i started doing business..

Today, marks my lowest point.

Wow.

It wow-ed me till i can't think at all.

I got screamed in the public!

I was waiting alone for him and he came by with his right hand man.

My business partner has some other chores to do.

His son came during the screaming session.

I was like NO.. NO.. NOOO not in front of his son..

It went like this..

We were having a drink and when i told him what's the problem really was which apparently not a problem to him! WTF!

We are just taking precaution but then he has other plans which WE DID NOT KNOW!

Why cant you focking tell us? That everything will be okay even though our paper work or licence is NOT SUFFICIENT! FOCKING SHIT!

He asked me question that is very vindictive.

As if he wants to hear what he wanna hear.

With his loud voice. When i didnt say a word.. awkward silence between us which makes me blurt out STOOPID answer..

My mentor screamed at me. With his angry eyes.

He said he will pull off all the projects that we have.. :(

And he told me that do not come and see him again.

Now, he is my ex-mentor then.

Sigh, that was sad.

It was unintentional fault.

I didn't know it was wrong.

I was embarrassed like seriously very.

I guess it was never meant to be.

I felt relieve, really.

I know that doing business with him is going to be tough.

I dreamed about this before. I know its going to happen.

Out of all days, it happened today.

Which tomorrow, our first project will be awarded to us. :"(

Now, its gone in the midst of the FECKING AIR.

Now, we are back to square one.

Its okay :)

As much as i love the challenge, i'm very frustrated that my mentor just left me that way..

In front of his right hand man and HIS SON!

OH GAWD!

I survived that hellish and agonizing and suffering moment.

Never again.

NEVER AGAIN I WILL LET MYSELF BEING PLACED IN THAT SITUATION!

NEVER!

Putting my shit back together for a glorious day tomorrow!

Soft Side

2011-10-18T16:53:00.001-04:00

Listening to Dustin O'Halloran

Woke up from my sleep thinking about her

This post is dedicated to my lover who loves me like i am the only guy in the world.

Good Evening to all my respected readers,

I've learned that to blame the external causes proves that nothing good comes from it.

I've learned that forgive and forget is very powerful and strengthening.

I've learned that other people may experienced more hellish situation than me.

To begin with.

My soft side..

My long gone soft side..

My soft side went for a trip for a very long time until recently they decided to come back.

My soft side hid under the hard shell of rage and anger.

My hard shell of bastard-ness has been smashed by you.

You did it, little by little.

Until you touched them..

Your supple love just glistened with nectar of life.

Your Love

Is simply magical

You,

I just want you to know that you've changed me.

You've changed me into a better person.

A person who learns how to reason.

Reason on how to be a bigger entity.

An entity that i never dreamed of being together.

When we first laid eyes at Pennsylvania Hotel when you were at NYC for a holiday.

A person that shows a lot of "dont mess around with me" kinda aura.

I never knew that you will be my significant other.

I've always noticed the chemistry we had and have though.

Ahaa. :)

Tonight. I really miss you.

On the webcam, sleeping beside me.

I have that void that i have not feel for such a long time.

The void that only you could fill it up with your laughter and your beautiful eyes and more.

This void causes a heartache that i thought i will never be that soft to feel it.

Oh, im wrong, im so wrong.

You've showed me how to love again.

How to love you more!

How to love.

*sigh*

Looking back.. its such a long and agonizing journey for me.

and i've caused a lot of pain to other people too.. which i completely detest!

You took my hands and showed me the way..

to the brighter side.

Illuminating. Certainly.

You,

I just want you to know that i miss holding your hands..

I just want you to know that you are my life.

My world revolves around you.. well most of the time LOL.. without the PS3 yeah...

Just kidding.

My world do revolves around you.

Usually, when i play my game, i have you around...

but now, i don't even want to touch it..

Sayang,

Over the couple few days. i am a little bit emotional and mellow. I'm sorry.

I can't remember when was the last time i really look into your eyes..

Just look at you.. holding your hands, side by side..

and say that I Love You.

Baby, I miss you a lot.

Come back fast! :)

Come back really fast.

I need you here with me.

Hamster Wheel

2011-09-25T14:37:00.000-04:00

Hello there boys and girls,

It has been a while since i last posted a new post here in my blog :)
Im very happy to tell you that ive left the company for a month now and IM OFF the hamster wheel.
Im doing business on my own now and it is great :)

I have a very supportive partner but sadly she will join me soon because of our financial status will be strong with her help.
Im trying to change my negative attitude into a very positive attitude.

T Harv said "My inner world creates my outer world"
Will change my roots to get great results not only good but GREAT!
Yes and YES!

We are currently venturing in many types of businesses such as Construction, Information and Communication Technology (ICT), Event Management, Printing, Training, Trading, Lighting and Green Technology. We got great supports from our parents and friends.

I am encouraging my friends and family to become an entrepreneurs!!
Im happier than before! I love it! I love the challenges :)
I love my partner which is my business partner too! :)

If you need more information please visit our page.
http://www.facebook.com/TYHResources
We will create our logo soon :)

Cheers!
HD

This will be..

2011-07-18T12:50:00.002-04:00

Hopefully, this will be my last task at this company.

Will be resigning soon..

and hopefully, yeah.. we will see.

Been preparing a lot for the exhibition this coming wednesday.

Logistics, display item, booth, VIP, dinners, reservations... bla bla bla blaaaaaaa

Its been over 2 months for the preparations.. well of course, aside other jobs, not to mention the hellish ad hog jobs...

I'm being treated like a robot.

I wont be one. Will be running away from the hamster wheel!

All the best to me!

LMAO

2011-07-09T22:37:00.002-04:00

Let's Munch An Orange

Life

2011-07-09T14:27:00.003-04:00

Life.

What is the first thing on your mind when it comes to life?

The thing that you're thinking, that's the main goal of your life.

Or maybe not. Just saying.

Life.

There are ups and downs.

Someone told me that whatever doesnt kill you makes you stronger.

Live you life.

Be sad, Be happy, and so on..

Yeah of course.

Life has crossroads.

Sometimes our life's crossroads is the same as someone else's

Thats when you meet them..

Sometimes, you will walk together with them for a long time and when it comes to another crossroad, .. that's when it hard..

Hard to say goodbye.

Hard to see your friend or whoever that is chooses another road.

Hard, it is hard..

But life goes on.

Its been a while since i blog, so my structure.. is not there. hopefully you know where im coming from.

wait... i never had structure before in my blog. LOL

Let continue!

And sometimes... only happens rarely...

You will have somebody to walk together till the end of days.

That's when you dont have to worry to stop by at other crossroads.

Because you know, the next road you will choose, there is someone beside you.

Life can be hard sometimes.

Life shows you that you're human.

Life add spices to your life.

Life is ALIVE.

To tell you the truth.. ive lost my point.. shit...

but whatever it is, for those who are sad out there.. remember!

that there's always something good awaits you... maybe not around the corner..

but they are coming.. TIME is important..

TQ lads.

Cheerios!

Work

2011-07-01T08:17:00.001-04:00

Work

Or what ever you wanna call it.

BDM just checked in to our office.

Not liking it at all.

Im supposed to be the BDM!

Not him!

damn it

Gonna see whats up.

Boring tul.

Fights

2011-06-29T13:04:00.002-04:00

Im getting too old for this.

I will keep quiet if i have nothing to say

My mouth only know how to fuel the fire

and my anger just add dynamite to it sweet huh?

I dont know what to do now.

To even think about it.. it makes me mad

I dont even know what is it about anymore..

weird fuck

Stevens Reunion!

2011-05-22T10:39:00.003-04:00

Just got back from my alma mater's reunion!

My third reunion with my Stevens family actually.

Our alumni is really active with events.

and i can only turn up to few of them.

We went to Mid Valley to try out the new Laser Tag thingy.

hahahah funny, in New York we didnt wanna try it but in Malaysia yeah we do wanna try it..

Nevertheless, it was fun!!

ahahha we kick asss!!

Camping and shooting the little buggers cheating shit! :)

I managed to get the high score for one of the session! Hihihihi!

We managed to catch up on our working jobs and stuff.

As usual, Apok with his funny and witty words ahahaha.. using all the cliche words at work..

like liaise, shall, procurement and more

I miss them so much!

The fun stuff that we shared during my 4 years life at the States!
Our successful seniors!

One of them is the MD of her own company! wow.. hebat!

And all of them is SOMEONE at their respected offices.

I think Stevens has a very good breed of alumni.

Hopefully it will continue on as we are adding more members each year.

As the self proclaimed Social Chair of Stevens MASA Alumni, Im happy that we still make time to see each other and have fun together. :)

Cheers!

The Land Before Time

2011-05-09T09:16:00.002-04:00

I'm listening to one of The Land Before Time soundtrack.

To tell you the truth, James Horner is a good composer.

Fecking awesome.

Well, im not gonna talk about that movie.

What is time?

Time?

According to the dick-tionary: A nonspacial cunt-inuum in which events occur in apparently irreversible succession from the past through the present to the future..

...........

fuck this is boring.

Apparently, Najib introduces 1ASEAN?

LOL!

I hate to say this buttt... TOLLLDDD YAA!!!!!

I FUCKIN TOLD YAAA!

FUCK its true. damn it.

So theres nothing we can do now huh?

damn it.

NWO is coming.

Brace for it.

On the other hand...
Last week, she and i was out with our new found friend from Swiss..

well actually he is our client.. but not a client anymore.. a friend.

He knows about us..

We brought him around and shit..

not only him, but I DISCOVERED NEW PLACE IN KL!
LOL!!!

Enough bout that.

Im still regretting that i missed my friend's wedding!
FOR FUCK's SAKE!!! FUCK!!!

URGH! cannot forgive myself

The thing is.. on Saturday, i was out with my family.. relaxing.. not doing any shit..

till the night comes.. where we celebrated mother's day. and then straight away i picked my swiss friend up and when to zouk and changkat.

FUCK MAN! FUCK!

I was planning to bring him along on sunday because I TOT THE FREAKING WEDDING IS ON SUNDAY!!!!! :(:(:( SHIT!

damn it.damn it damn it damn it damn it!!

On Sunday, we brought him to Bukit Bintang aand there's a freaking nice bar at the top of LOT 10! LOL! i dont know that.

wow! i never thought KL is that beautiful! :)

fuck. enough of this.

im hungry and grumpy.

for fuck sake

fucking stupid title with a fucking stupid post.

Good fucking job.

fucken fuck.

fuckkooss!

Business And Friends

2011-04-19T10:49:00.004-04:00

How many of you have engaged business with your buddy?

Hell must be lots of you guys.

How many of you lost some of your friends because of business?

HELLHACKSHIT, must be LOADS of you. Expected!!

Business and friends should go well together.NOTTTTTTTTTTT!

Why?

Because of the trust and time we spend together as a friend.

We must be thinking, heck, he/she wont stab me in the back.

Thats wrong.

Everybody can stab you in the back.

Money could split marriage. Heh, and now this, just a friendship. Friendship is peanuts when compared to marriage.

Businesses also changed the personality of the so called friends.

I have a friend which im still in contact now.

He is very excited with new connections and 'big budget' projects.

Well, and now he looked down on me.

Brags about the projects.

Brags about the connections.

When i have some contacts to introduce to him, he questioned the credibility of my contacts..

No cikai2... No shit.. hm..

Show me ONE project that you've close than you can talk shit.

Just ONE!

Money doesn't come rolling to your feet.

There is no such thing as free lunch.

There is no substitute for working hard.

Ive handled a lot of projects.

Ive handled clients from Australia, Germany, Singapore, UK, Spain, JAPAN(we are JVing with) and well Malaysia of course.

Ranging from few thousand dollars to billions of dollars.

To close a fucking project is not just as simple as "Oh i have a 7 billion project, do you have any contacts that could do the project? Commission has to be split 50/50"

What about the groundwork for the feasibility of the project?

What about Letter of Award?

If its a Direct Nego, well show me the papers! the details of the project

Not just simply as one fucking meeting and you will get the 1% commission!

When people see the big budget.. there goes their values, there goes their friends, there goes everything, rude and very condescending.

To do a project worth 420million is hellish.

And youre talking about 7 billion project.

and you talk to me like youve been doing business for years!

Ive been working in this company for just 4 months.

But the experience ive obtained is priceless.

Few of my projects failed!

2 of them failed even during the introduction.

and one of them failed to just execute the project.

Why?

No fucking paper trail.

The trend in Malaysia nowadays is to cheat the contractor by getting some shit money upfront and then only they will reveal the papers for the project. Then youll realize that you dont have enough budget to start the project because some people above took the money and put it in their pockets without doing any shit.

Ive been taught to save our ass first with paper trails.

Even though it will take a lot more time to signed an agreement but at least you have the terms and condition to save your side.

I have contacts. Im beginning to create my own networking web.

Its interesting. And its interesting to meet up with successful people in the business world.

One of them is the CSL owner. Just a simple phone but he is a billionaire.

Volume is the secret.. the volume that you sell to the customer to get lots of profit because you have low margin for each of the product.

I have less experience in business if compared to my significant other.

Im happy that i have a teammate to double check my moves.

Hopefully we will close one deal!

Get the commission the right way and away we go :)

Insya Allah..

Katy :(

2011-04-12T11:58:00.006-04:00

Let me tell you a story about a kitten.

A strong little kitten.

One day, I was hanging out at 7-Eleven with her.

No where to go and to hang out at.

Halfway through the session..

Suddenly, i heard a sound..

Sound of a kitten meowing.. far away from me.

I could hear her voice calling for her mom maybe.

As expected, i ran towards the voice..

I cannot ignore the sound, which happens to be ME. My philosophy maybe or just my way of handling the situation.

As i get closer, the sound is getting clearer.

It was dark. The sounds of cars rushing through the road and there she was.. in the drain..

trying to climb her way out.

I checked the surroundings whether theres her siblings somewhere near.

None to be found including her mom.

So, i picked her up. :)

aahhhh the warmm fuzzy feeling.

She was calico in color and very small.. around 2 weeks? or so..

But i know i cannot get attached to this kitten.

I just have to help her.

I called my lil brother to bring up the torchlight so that i could search the drains and

My house was nearby.

When i left her on the ground, she will come for me..

Sigh :(

Found an empty box and i placed her inside.

She was so small and fat.

Im sure her mom is nearby.. so i just left her alone in the box hoping her mom will get her back.

But.. nothing, no sign of a cat at all

And there was a pack of wild dogs coming to that area.

Im not taking any chances.

I took her home. My mom told me that i have to take care of the kitten not her.

But i know she will love the kitten too eventually.

The next day, we bought bottle for kitten and her milk to nurse her

:) She didnt eat the night before.

So, she drank the milk... and she slept.

We left her for work.

For the next 2 weeks, i woke up at 4am

just to give her the milk and my mom will take over during the afternoon as i wont be at home.

We clean her up, we gave her milk, we watch her grow,

and sometimes when shes done with the milk she will sleep on me.

Purring.. :(

She likes to be cuddled up in a towel and she will sleep in it.

She was sooo cute.. and her eyes.. ahhhh cute

her mouth and her smell.. smell of kittens.. :)

VERY VERY CUTE

My mom began to love her too! haha!

She was very active..

Ran around the house..

Hopping.. played with my other senior cats.

As days go by, she getting bigger and bigger.

She ran around the house.. we laughed seeing her cute behavior

hahaa.:) just effing cute

But one day, she had diarrhea.

Brought her to the clinic and the doctor said she needs to be de-wormed.

A week after, she began to eat but still shes having diarrhea.

Brought her to the clinic again.

Still she needs to be de-wormed..

We gave her the medicine, glucose for energy and milk.

I have to force feed her.. :'( I feel bad now..

i want her to live of course..

Then, she got active again but still having the diarrhea..

I began to ignore her.. because i tot she's getting bigger now

and we've past the crucial time to nurture her which is during her nursing period.

Every time i went to the kitchen, she will be meowing..

at times ill let her out and clean her up

gave her food and water.

but at times.. ill ignore her.. :(( fuckkk...

Sometimes i feel angry at her because.. i got lots of work to do..

but i have to clean her up..

Every morning before i go to work, ill give her food and if i have time ill clean her up..

Then, today, i had a meeting in Cheras.

It was late, and my mom called me..

I told her that im in the meeting and ill call her back.

After an hour, i call her up..

and she sounds... like she cried.

and i asked her why did she called?

She said "The kitten"

I was like " what about the kitten?"

She said "She died"

I was so shockeddd! :(

I cried on the spot.

YA was there and she began to comfort me.

As i reached home..

This is the fucked up part..

The part which makes me burst in tears.

I went to the kitchen..

Saw her food on the kitchen counter...

I began to cry..

No more meowing for food.

No more..

No more of her purring asking for food or out from the cage..

It was empty..

Her cage was empty..

Her bed was empty..

It was clean and not messy..

No more little paws reaching out from the cage..

I saw her bottles on the kitchen counter

It kills me..

I feel bad

Im regretting everything..

I know i could take care of her a little bit better.

I know i could treat her a little bit better.

I know that she could live longer.. :(

She was alright yesterday..

I saw her last night.

She was purring..

and i said.. go to sleep Katy.. youve eaten just now.

I didnt manage to pat her for the last time.. :(

I didnt manage to give her food for the last time.

The sand is still red..

My mom buried her at our backyard..

I have her pictures..

I have her videos..

:'(

I can still hear her voice meowing in my head... :((

I feel so sad...!!!!!!!!!

Im angry at myself.

I know i can treat her better.

I feel bad.

My whole house is gloomy. My mom is still sad.

TO Katy:

I know you are not here anymore.

I love you.

Even though i didnt give you enough attention.

I tot youll live longer.

Im sorry.

Im so sorry Katy.

You'll always be here in my heart..

Im sorry. and i love you.

:'(

Rest in Peace Katy

Stress Ball

2011-03-30T07:56:00.004-04:00

Its 8.00pm.. i just reached home.

I just have another 30 minutes to relax and im off to work again... SHIT!

I have anger management problem yeah i know that shit.

Luckily i have some furry friends at home to greet me..

Which hey it lower down the stress level a bit :)

Back to the fucking story.. I will be fuckkkkeeennn angry

Especially when it comes to some fucking bullshit 3rd party twat fuck.

Well, i was alright throughout the day.

And suddenly a friend of mine ask me about his situation,

where some guy touched her gf's arms..

Spontaneously, i answered ill be piss if i dont fucking know that guy.

If a friend.. yeah.. considerable READ THIS CONSIDERABLE! I didnt say oh i will be okay..

I SAID Ill weigh that shit.

I was sitting down doing my work.

And yeah, you guessed that right. It was some guy who i fucking hate, gosh i wanna fuck his head up, touches my girl's arm. Even though it was a friendly note or heck who the fuck knows, that guy might be a fucking pervert just looking for a chance or some shit. Fuck him seriuosly..

Because i know that fucked up guy has feelings for her since the first day im at the office!!! FUCK!

DO NOT TELL ME TO CALM DOWN.

FUCK that shit if u think i shouldnt be over protective.

Well, i shouldnt

I KNOW i shoudnt

But shit bound to happen when we tend to chill..

Micro manage every shit so you know whatever you do if things didnt happen, its not your fault..

Fuck im so stressed out.

VERY FUCKING ANGRY!

urgh.. enough drama please.

I hate 3rd party.

Listen to this, i fucking hate 3rd party,

If only i can wipe out every fucking single one of them.

I can live happily ever after.

FUCK!

Im very stressed out at work, at home and now even this shit!

Im working like a dog. with fucked up payment. shit fuck bastard!

I have to deal with every sort of shitty people.

Who wants money who wants benefits from us

who wants shit!

I have to pretend to be a very cool fucking person in front of some hot shots.

FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

its getting to my nerve really quick!

I need to let go of stuff that i cant control.

I need to learn how to be cool.

I need to learn NOT TO CARE. but wait when you dont care the other party will say you dont love them that much! hmm WELL CHOOSE! you want me to be protective or not protective!

I need to be able to keep my composure.

I need to know how to channel my fucking anger somewhere else.

I think i need to buy a stress ball.

I need that.

btw, one more time you stupid dude.

I see you do shit, youre fucking gonna get it.

I dont give a fuck.

ill bitch slap you back to wherever shithole you came from!

I need a stress ball.

Special Post: Just For Her

2011-03-27T12:33:00.006-04:00

Good Evening People.

And Good Evening to you My Love.

Its 1230am, 28th of March 2011.

Before that, this post is gooey and lovey dovey. Before you go further, gotta make sure that you can handle that. :P

Its been nearly 3 months together.

And i feel like I've known you for such a long time.

At this rate we are going, i know we are very much strong to get to the next stage.

But, Im sorry if im a little bit childish.. haha hopefully youre gonna get childish too!

HAHAHA which hey, sometimes we are childish!

"College student!" The best compliment we got today.

Speaking about compliments.

Nobody ever compliments me like you do baby.

Your remarks to me just now.. just blew me away...

Never felt like being on a pedestal before until just now.

I want you to feel the same way because..

You bring me to the stage where im not scared of relationship and love anymore.

Commitments and marriage or more.

I have to thank you for that.

Youre Perfect.

I love the way you are.

Youre somewhat like a guardian angel.

My guardian angel.

You really know how to handle me.

You accept my flaws.

You know how to make me happy

You know everything about me.

Youre Beautiful

Youre Brilliant

You have very high confidence level

Youre Hot and CUTE!

GOSH!

Oh Youre a good kisser too! <-- DAMN GOOD!

Im lucky to meet you and make you mine!

So freaking lucky to make you mine

Thank you for making the decision to see me at Empire..

If not, we are not going to be here right now.

The way you look at me.. is full of love.. and lust (sometimes) hahaha

The way you hold me..

The way you talk to me..

The way you console me..

The way you cling to me..

Everything about it is soooo perfect.

Safe to say, I never met someone who is this perfect like you.

And sayang, im not blinded.

I weigh the pros and cons.

I know that you are perfect for me.

Im bagging this fish home.

You're a very big catch and ill keep it by my side

Everytime i see you, i will be happy.

Remember our lunch just now?

We laughed our ass off at the table.

Cant ever talk after that.

Plus, im close to your family.

I love hanging out with them

I love playing games with them

Never been close to any family before.

I will always love you, and i believe that you are for me.

Let hope for the best okay baby?

Lets go and sleep now, tomorrow is a working day.

Dear sayang,

Thank you :)

and again! Im nottttt blinded!

I know what im seeing

I know when i see values and assets. :D

Youre my GREATEST Love.

I really really reallyyyyyyyyy love your EYES!

Geram tgk!

I sayang you a lot k sayang!

Thank you for finding me and bring me to my track.
Living the dream life that im longing for.

Your Love,

Clock is Ticking

2011-03-24T12:08:00.006-04:00

Time waits for no one.

Everyday i feel like the day is getting shorter and shorter!!

Why?

Because i got a lot of tasks to do..

Every morning, when i open up my outlook..

There you go.. the tasksssssss that i haven't done or some follow up has to be done.

Sigh. Its really hard to juggle sometimes but as times go on, i began to keep my composure.

Even though ill be a drama king along the process... heh! I dont care! :)

I got no time for my girlfriend

My family! urghh

My football FC! Dahlia FC..

My Friends..

sigh been neglecting them for quite a while..

Its not totally neglecting, its just that i HAVE A LOT of work to do.

I just got back from a meeting, and guess what.. its 12am in the morning now.

Fuck! im so tired. My eyes are swollen, my nose is runny,

I feel like i will have a cold.

SHIT! Hate that.

My brother is out with his friends

Sigh, if only i have the privilege to do that.

Now its all about money and getting stable before you get married.

Tomorrow is gonna be a long day also..

Better Sleep Now!

Cheers

Condolences to Sureen's Family.

2011-03-24T12:04:00.003-04:00

Dear Sureen,

I know you are having a bad time. I dont know what to say.

Just be strong for your family. I know its cliche.

But things like this.. made us speechless.

I want to stop by your house today.. urgh. i got lotsa meeting.

Im sorry. Sigh. Ill try and stop by soon.

Stay strong dear.

Al- Fatihah.

Barf

2011-03-16T20:01:00.004-04:00

Im barfing uncontrollably!!!

AHHHHH!!!

This morning i show something that i detest!!

Disgust!

I gagged!

Gag me with a FORK!

So my throat will bleed!

Ill throw up blood!

HOLLY SHIT!

Someone eats their own words!

The world is full with hypocrites!

OHMYGOODNEESSSS!!!!

Okay i just gagged again.

Tasted my vomit in my mouth.

YUCK!

Muntah muntahhh!!

okay gotta do my work!

Meeting at 10am

Meeting meeting meeting!

Killzone 3

2011-03-16T10:38:00.004-04:00

KILLZONE 3 is awesomeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!

Played it for weeks now :)

My brother bought the collectors edition where you can download additional maps for free.

The multiplayer mode is flawless.

Warzone mode is the best

Add me up!

haha im not that good though.

Still trying to learn.

FPS is THEEE Game for ps3.

Great graphics, great storyline.

Modern Warfare 2 is great.

Waiting for Modern Warfare 3.

Gonna be released at the end of this year.

I guess.

Not a fan of Black Ops.

Played it but i think the Modern Warfare lineup is awesome-r

WOot wooootttt!

One thing

2011-03-16T09:58:00.003-04:00

One thing about haters is.. they are pests!

hahahahahahaha!

Cheers mate.

True i dont know shit about 'cinta'

HAHAHAHAAH

but who cares.

Thanks for filling up my traffic.

Really appreciate it.

Manchester United is..

2011-03-16T02:46:00.003-04:00

EVERYWHEREEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!

Look at the picture above!

I found it today.

Its about some pro-Libyan supporters who managed to take over the city which is controlled by the rebels

Manchester United.. in the middle of the upcoming civil war

Manchester United!

Glory glory man Uniiiiteddd unittteddd

Glory glory

By the way, we won yesterday!

HOOAHH!!

Forgetting The Past

2011-03-16T02:00:00.001-04:00

The Past.

The Present.

In which world do you choose to dwell in?

As for me, the present is much more important.

but i cant disregard the past, because it molds me into the person i am now.

Cant disregard and cherish the past are totally 2 different things.

There's always gonna be 2 schools of thoughts.

One. A group of people who will always cherish the past as much as the present. For example, keeping exes pictures, memories and remember them like nothing happened that caused for not being together now.

Two. A group of people who trashed everything in a big black box and throw them away. Only remember why it happened and not the sweet memories and such.

I burned it by the way. hahahaha

Some of it. Some is in the black box... never to be opened again.

If the box is opened.. well pandora's box effect will engulf me and i will fall into a dark well again.

Fuck it. :)

Do not step in a pile of shit if you know youll get shat again and again. LOL

Someone told me that recently.

Anyhow, people will always have their own preference of how they will handle their past BUT remember not to hurt your present person ever because they are the one who will handle your swinging emotions and THE ONE WHO IS WITH YOU right now.

Live the moment.

Let the past moments die and lost in the midst of time.

Love your present one like never before.

Trust me. It works :)

Cheers!

Turning into A New Leaf

2011-03-14T02:58:00.003-04:00

I will try my best to use proper English.

Appropriate language.

Appropriate spelling.

And so on!

Why?

Because im lighting this place up on FIYAAHHH!!!

"Turning into A New Leaf"

So much for that.

Of catching up @The Office.

2011-03-10T01:27:00.006-05:00

My team mate aka my love is not here..

So, i have to catch up on stuff that i dont know about.

BUT! i hateeeeeeeee reading documentssss.. sigh

Usually i will have lunch with sayang and vishal.

But then she has a training at Damansara

And Vishal is very busy streamlining his company.

BMW TU VISHAL! :P Get it done and youll get a BMW for free!!! hahahah

I had lunch with some UK guys and singaporean people for ONE of the businesses that we are doing now with boss of course.

And one of them asked me, about my job scope.

I told him about what im doing now.

and boss interrupts "Well Hazim is doing my ODD JOBS"

Odd? hahahaha.. or special :P

I feel special~~ lalaalala well of coz the same goes to you sayang,

we are THEEEEE Dynamic Duo.

Without you i cant function properly... FOR NOW! :D

make full use of that honey. In a few months, ill be able to stand alone with your help :)

Thanks!

I got scolded by boss subtlety by boss yesterday.

Well i was shooting in all direction for business development.

He straighten me up!

hahaha

yeah of coz, ill be pissed too, if the person who is in charge of business, keep opening business with people but do not close it for projects.

hm, ILL DO THAT!

already listed down what my projects now.

and.. HOLLY SHIT! NOT EVEN ONE has been closed.. :P

Ill be organized and systematic.

Get all the things done properly.

I love this company.

Not thinking of going out.

Because i think ill learn a lot here.

On how to deal with people, managing peers and so much more.

One thing that ive noticed is that i tend to listen on what people have to say now rather than before. hahahaha.

Thanks to her! She molded me into this :)

Great teacher, girlfriend, lover, friend, and... MORE!

I supposed to read about something now..

but its cold and im sleepy....

zzZzzZzzzZzzzzzzz

"Push push pushhhhh Hazim PUSH!"

Triple p's

Cheers peeps

An extraordinary Weekend :)

2011-03-06T07:52:00.003-05:00

okay im stressed up with the manchester vs liverpool game..

manchester is down with 2 goal ah! fuck!

ok ok..

This weekend.. was.. MAGICAL! :)

hahaha i love it.

I have no idea how to explain it.

The fact that im very deep into this relationship..

is making me happy! :)

More than ever.

On Saturday..

We nursed the kitten together.

Send the kitten to the clinic and hahaha just like a good team

Dynamic Duo :)

Well we haven't decided a name for the kitten.

MOST IMPORTANTLY, the fact that we managed to spend time together... A LOT!

iS AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!! FUN HAPPY AND ALL THE GOOD STUFF IN IT

Im excited!

Never been into a relationship where we SELDOM! I MEAN VERY SELDOM. We SELDOM FIGHT!
OMG! never tot its this easy!

The easiest ever! :)

She is awesome. one great person with colorful personality.

She knows what she is doing.

I miss her a lot..

I want her to be beside me all the time now.

HD is in love :)

Hard Enough

2011-03-04T10:06:00.004-05:00

Its Hard Enough to see my friends suffering because of love.

Is that a sign like what happened before?

A sign that ill get the same thing and feel the same thing as what my friend felt?

Thats crazy.

But yeah Im way too paranoid about this.

I think too much.

You know why?

Because i dont wanna be in that state anymore.

Its Hard Enough to get to where im now.

Where im happy

Where i get all my laughter back.

Where i get half of myself back!

Dont you guys dare to question why im so fucking careful with what im doing.

Dont you guys dare to say that im stupid enough to question whatever it is

dont you guys dare to say that im over protective!

Fuck im learning here

im learning on how to not have control over some shit that may or may not be successful.

Just like business.

Its hard enough to let myself trust someone.

Im sorry if i HATE IT to let some ex contacted my gf.

Im sorry if i GET FUCKING ANNOYED if a guy is looking at my gf

Im Sorry if i a fucking jealous person

Im sorry if im a fucking uncool!

its fucking annoying to see me... like think over stuff that may or may not happened!

What the fuck!

Its all rants anyway

nothing important :)

BUT!

i think i have to learn.

Learn how to be cool

learn how to be secure.

learn jim learn :)

I WILL with the right support.

i know i have ONE

Goodnight,

cheers

YA's

hm.

2011-02-23T12:12:00.003-05:00

Hm..

Think.

Act.

Think.

Resolve.

Think.

Work on it

Think.

Still on it

THink.

Oh fuck it

Don't think about it anymore.

kunfayakun...

goodnight.

Happy!

2011-02-20T23:32:00.003-05:00

Now everybody is happy!

and the world is fair again :)

Everybody is back on their track.

Hopefully everybody will stay happy always!

and just have fuN!

Thats whats life is all about! :D

"I got my head checked! by a jumbo jet!"

Idea

2011-02-19T01:22:00.003-05:00

What is an idea?

What contributes to that idea?

Which point of view is that idea is coming from?

How idea is created?

Inspiration?

Someone told me that is the seed of the idea.

To make someone's pen dance on a piece of paper

To make the blinking cursor, stops blinking and produce alphabets to create a word and hence a sentence...

I would believe so..

HANDBAGS!

suddenly we talked about handbags!

well..

I prefer Hermes/versace/ferragams

Her eyes!

I Love her pair of glittering eyes!

Macam Puss in Boots

Her Chirpy Attitude!

CHIPYYYHH!!

Her Body...

GODDAMN!

Her Hair..

Alluringggg..

Her lips

So soft

Her LAUGH!

AHAHAHAHHAH just the same as mine

Her Smile!

Melting

Her baby talk!

AHHAHAH LOVE IT!

Her moves (dance)

FUCKKK WEHHHHHH!!!

She teaches me on how to get better in every aspect of life's attributes.

ITS GOING TO BE LEGENNNN------ WAIITTT FOR ITTTTTTTT--- WAIIITTT WAIIITTT FOR ITTTTTT --- DARY!~!!!!

okay....

Shes very different!!!!

The idea of it! oh very different

I get what i want

She gets what she wants :) *just asked her* HAHAHAH

and i dont know! Its relaxing and very casual.

hm!

The Story

2011-02-14T16:03:00.005-05:00

Disclaimer: Do not read if you hate seeing me happy or seeing me so much in whatever i dont believe in before. The words may hurt some of you. :) but hey im back in the game. Dont worry just be happy! I apologize if the post will cause you nausea or 'menyampah: :P. Just dont read it then.

So,

Yes, I know, Im Happy.

Very Happy!

Just got back home.. with a bunch of.. light at the end of the tunnel.

And no its not a freight train.

Its something that is very soothing and comfortable and unique.

Somehow, it just happened.

Just a spark and and BOOOM! Fireworks.

okay wait someone just asked me what is my blog add..

hahahahahahahahah no way honey! :)

mmg tak ar!! :P ive told you A LOT of times...

i guess its the Leo traits huh.. hahaha

But yeah we didnt celebrate Vday. Well Just because.

:) Because of the expectations and shit.

But one thing about this special person is... that she always know how to get through me

And always constructive whenever we have a disagreement.

And Valentine is not a topic that we are going to fight about.

We spend our time watching movies and ust hang out like we usually do.

Eat! oh i loveeeeeeeeee to eat! well same goes to her. She eats more than what i eat.

Dang.

Hm.. The way she looks at me.

With her eyes glimmering and shining with hope and affection.

I smiled and she smiled back..

aahhh. do you know that feeling?

Its very warm. and the miss feeling whenever shes not right there beside you.

control the anger problem that i have.

... okay im a bit sleepy.

Ill add some soon.

Gotta go and sleep. :)

A special shout out to that special someone:

SAYANG! Thank you for a great day and night! :)

Youre awesome! :)

-HD

Dahlia FC

2011-02-12T07:30:00.001-05:00

I, Jimbo, will commit myself to my team!

which is Dahlia FC!

Hasif played the game really well.

He got lots of appraisals.

As a brother im really proud of him :)

HOoooahh!!!

Happy Birthday Alif!

2011-02-12T01:33:00.001-05:00

Today is Alif's Birthday!

Semoga anda happy selalu.

Perempuan2 yang tak guna lif kau tinggal kan saja

Gonna go toooo parrtayyyy!

Everyone is gonna bring their partners!

WELL FEAR NO MOREEEEE!

I got mine!

It was AMAZING!

2011-02-11T16:19:00.003-05:00

I had a freaking fun time tonight.

and it was Ninety nine point nine nine nine nine nine nine over ten. :)

Ahhhh it was awesome.

certainly! Plenty more to come.

I think i can be even more public now :)

Of More and Most,

More of a Person,

which have the Most amount of Feelings,

You're the Most Amazing person Alive,

Well the DICTATORship could be put aside, hahahhhahahaa

I can still survive under your rule,

BUT! i know youll have fun when im ruling.

Leos are awesome. The KINGS and QUEENS. We stay ALIVE! *ROOOOAARRRR*

Im loving it!

Youre astonishingly charming and your camaraderie with people around you and ESPECIALLY me :) is just simply perfect.

You party just the same as i am. Party animal.

You get through me LIKE NOBODY EVER DID!

You understand me to the fullestttt

Even though im hard to handle, you still are able to make me feel all gooey inside.

We listen to all kind of music.

I love the way you look at me, the same way i look at you.

I KNOW that look! the first time i saw it... i just know it.

You know i dont like to fight, :) i love the way we handle stuff.

When youre mad, you know how to converse well, and get your points straight to my head.

Youre positiveness just.... crazy..

I admire your strength and courage.

Rationality + Emotions = Awwwwwwwwwwwww - Yeah!

Im Lucky.

You.

Goodnight.

Im very Happy Finally! :)

Daily Routine

2011-02-10T19:12:00.003-05:00

Im happy and all flushed up every day.

I look forward every morning to go to work. :)

I know why.

At work, i look forward to lunch!

Hanging out for just a merely 90 minutes.

After that i look forward to go home,

take a bath. and off i go :D

I look forward to see her every now and then.

:) Well you can say.. everyday! hahahah

I love my job.

But lately ive been getting a lot of tasks

Im trying to be a more settled and organized person.

Hopefully, the business that we are initiating will make the company grow.

Thanks to Farhan.

I look forward TO NOT sit on the toilet till 11am :O

Most Importantly, I look forward to hold her hands

aaaaaaaaaaaaaa! im all gooey nowadays. Shiate!

Have a Nice Day

Childish

2011-02-09T01:59:00.004-05:00

bI think youre childish.

very. Not you

but your friend.

urgh!

Neways, Goodluck!

i have no time to deal with your fucked up friends.

im not sorry at all then!

you can go sob to your friends :)

try to be good to you but nehhhhh on second thought

SIMPANNNNNNN DULU!!!!!!!!!!!!

Greatest regret eh? LOL

Youre contradicting your words.

Have fun!

not gonna talk about this anymore.

Chaaallllooowwww bettyyyY~~~

Of "I think HD should fill in this form"

2011-02-08T19:50:00.006-05:00

If he had any bloody sense of remorse, at all. Or if he ever learns the right way to apologize to people. He, should probably hand in an infinite copies of this, especially to those who he hurt during his supposedly "dark ages".

I find it ironic that he doesn't trust nor believe in true love OR the opposite sex, dissing about them, yet he seems easy to find an instant way to fall in love with a person within a short period of time. Oh yeah, he definitely NEEDS to apologize to ALL women in the world which he cussed before meeting this whoever the hell she is.

Ahh... I'm actually reluctant to post this but fuck it.

Just to let you know, you are the greatest regret of my life. And that I shouldn't even be sympathetic towards you when you wanna talk about your shipwrecked relationship, should have just left you in the black hole. Tepi longkang ke. Ungrateful bastard. THAT is the word I would use for you (and secretly wish I could permanently stamp it on your forehead), remember that for the rest of your life!

So sue me, who the fucking hell cares!

You are the caused of your own bad luck. You don't have to blame anyone else but yourself. I don't know HOW you look at yourself everyday in the mirror not THINKING about what you did to others. Fuck you!

Oh wait a min, what is the point of blaming your ex - yet again - because you can't bring yet ANOTHER girl home to your family? When you first took your ex home wasn't it like 5 years ago and she was your best friend? THAT IS A LONG TIME AGO. Why still find blame - YOU decided to do it didn't you? Get over it. And then you... after all that shit introduced ME to your beautiful family, and then decided to fucking BREAK me into shreds and pieces. And "oh sorry...." in the most demeaning way of expression. WHO THE HELL DO YOU THINK YOU ARE? HOW DARE YOU!!!!!!!!!!! So don't blame anyone else, because YOU are the cause of the shit that happens around you.

Fuck you!

Oh yeah and STOP using people's words as your own. What are you, 9? Baru nak kenal hidup and try so hard to sound cool? Stop repeating people's words on your blog, twitter. Do your own research if you have to! Don't they teach you about plagiarism in the US? Oh and find your own ideas, stop replicating people's discoveries as well.

P/S : For those of you who want to print this out and hand it to someone you have just hurt/betrayed/killed whatsoever, click on it you'll find the hi-res form.

P/S/S : Oh don't you just LOVE Tumblr!

I just want to say that im sorry. Im sorry. Truly from my heart.

Heres my Formal Apology.

Sorry Again.

Sincerely,
HD

at the office.

2011-02-07T18:57:00.002-05:00

At the office,

Same routine..

Same people..

Different route,

different matter,

different moods,

Different..

but its the same

Holiday

2011-02-03T19:57:00.000-05:00

Its chines new yearrrr
I'm waiting for my brother to get ready..

I'm at terengganu now :)
Beside the beach
Relaxinggg
Sweettt

Of Stomach Bug

2011-02-01T18:59:00.001-05:00

Okay this is funny and at the same time embarrassing!
Luckily I have my blackberry with me.
I'm supposed to be working today..
Emailed the HR and Boss saying that I have a stomach bug!!
Fug!

Its fugging hurtful and very very uncomfortable.
I went to the office yesterday with this stomach bug..
It wasn't helping at all.
I got sick, my coughing becomes worst and my tummy is NOT very happy with me!

Urghhhhh!!
And I tot this morning it will be alright
Went out with Meen last night and we ate Carl's Jr
I ate like a PIG!! Because I was hungry.. And tadaaaaa!!
The result is this morning I woke up and IM STILL ON THE FREAKING TOILET UNTIL Now!!
Yeah that's right! I'm blogging while I'm on the toilet!
I'm replying emails from work and such.
This is when the smartphone becomes handy! Hahaha!

I'm bbming my friends! Lol it was a long way from using iphone and then converting to bbm!
Hahahah a very large percentage of my bbm contact now were iphone users b4 this.
So yeah..

Back to my stomach bug..
I think if I light up my lighter, this toilet will explode!
Hahahahahahahah! Imagine with large amount of methane and sulfur
Boom!! Cool stuff

And u know ure fucked up when ur legs become numb after sitting on the toilet FOR A VERY LONG. TIME!!! Ahahah funnnyyyyeeehhh abd hilaaariousss!

But I still wanna go to the office still.
To show the office that I'm very determined to work! :D

Nevertheless, I'm sick
Gotta rest for a while
Love ya!

Again Baby

2011-01-31T22:26:00.002-05:00

Bqyhr Ggwy! Bwyf! Qqjk!

Oh myy!

Happyyy

2011-01-31T22:14:00.002-05:00

i wanna know your nameee~~

You just kill me, could you at least do that?

I wanna know your namee

or better yet, stand there

Just do thatt~~

*drill drill*

Heyy yeahhhh~

i wanna know your nameee~~

You just kill me, could you at least do that?

I wanna know your namee

or better yet, stand there

Just do thatt~~

Dopp DOpp dopDopdodpodop!

- Swedish House Mafia Feat Pharrell - ONE

Decode the new code :D

2011-01-27T19:25:00.002-05:00

Gbwpp yfrbw pher dgpk

BWHS QYW! YJK!

what else?

:)

2011-01-18T04:18:00.001-05:00

Ahaaaaaaa :)

ingaelo waynve! ahodet! nuurg!

ah haa ah haaa i like it

Busy!!

2011-01-14T23:47:00.003-05:00

Ive been busy for the whole week,

next week will be even hellish..

have to handle all the chores without the help of the MD.

Nevertheless,

gonna have fun for the weekend :)

Nobody is home now,

my brother is coming back today from london

im hungry..

i still want a dj set.

i can stand alone

umm i wanna watch movies.. yeah plural

coz im waaayyy behindddd.

and uhh.. i love the trust that my MD gave me in order to get things done

i love my job :)

Work!

2011-01-10T03:15:00.002-05:00

I wanna rant about some stupid shit!
One thing about Malay is they are so fucking envious of each other
Its not my fault u don't know how to speak english
Its not my fault that the boss dropped u from the project and began to involve me in it?!
Its not my fault that u don't have the game to get close to girls
Its not my fault your fucking corn row is hideous! Ape la bangang sgt g kerj buat cornrow!

And u call me names now?

Hahaha childish bitch!
U touch me, I'm going to burn your motherfucking house!

And one more thing!
One of u are a fucking manager kot gila!
I'm just an engineer fresh grad kot!
Gila ar melayu. Tak friendly cam babi
Yang lain2 okay je.
Executive level lak rasa insecure?!
Ape lancau!

Dress up if u don't wanna feel under dressed stupid fuck!
Wear a tie if u don't like seeing me wearing it?
Get a sense of executive level standard la gila!
Fuck I'm pissed!
Its just my first week and I have some stupid fuck calling me names and give me tht stupid look!

Fuck and one more thing!
If ure jealous! Weh I'm close to her la gila!!
Wanna woo her feel free bitch!
But please have a game!
And walking around with ur cornrow and wrist band and a fucking winter jacket around the office?!!
Kau ni rempit ke?

Bila dah kantoi nak malu2
Bdo!!!!!!! Punya melayu!

Fuck u and ur family!
Fuck I don't give a fucking fuck!

Waves

2011-01-09T11:21:00.000-05:00

Okay. I just got back from my cousin's house and I accidentally got high after I sniffed something familiar in his room. Lol funny

The thing is I wonder why is it so easy to get high after I didn't touch that green thing for a long time. Low tolerance? Well maybe
Btw I'm blogginh using my bb.

I'm too lazy to open up my com.

Usually when I'm high Ill seek for someone to chat and laugh
But hm. Nobody suits my taste or they are unavailable.
So its just me and my bb. Ahahah

Waves after waves!
Another wave came along.
Shattered my stand.
My feet grabs the loose grains of the sea.
Leaving a mark underneath.
Waves after waves.
They slowly eat up my grip.
Its gettin not comfy
I feel into the water
Before u know it
I'm swimming in the dark seaa
Not knowing what's going to happen.
I hate it.
But I have to do it to get to another land.
Progression?
We will see

Okay esok kerja.
Have to send my dad to the airport early in the morning.
Sleep tight

New Year's Partayyy! The Best EVER! :)

2011-01-02T10:34:00.020-05:00

We promised with each other to wake up at 6.00am

but then again.. i started my journey to penang aroung 12pm! HAHAHAHA

When we reached at the hotel, we checked in, have our lunch then straight away we went to the beach! :)

Swweett! We played banana boat and its way cheaper than the usual price...

i dont know why... there are less people and.. i was like. shit this is not good for tonight's party.

So we started to ask around.

Where the HELL is the best party for tonight.

Well some people say its Hard Rock Hotel and some sunrise bar? i dont know.

We are not planning to go to the town.. because it will be so fucking jammed with traffic..

SO we decided to walk along the road at Ferringhi to check out stuff

I slept for 15mins and at around 930pm

we went out. I was so fucking tired... road trip for 5 hours.. yeah its a road trip soooo

we did a lot a stops.. they wanna smoke.. they wanna pee .. i wannaa pee.. i wanna drink.. bla bla bkla but it was fun. slow and steady..

We started walking to Hard Rock.. i wore short pants and Jets Jersey... and mardi gras beads

HELL YEAH im a partay animal...

It was 95RM per person.. we were like =.=

no i wont pay that much for a stupid shit party..

we started walking again.. till we reached the Holiday Inn..

and we heard a sound... that we are very familiar with..

BASS SOUND!

hahahahaha

so we ran to that place..

The place is called "69 Mansion"

In between Holiday Inn and The Ship

and everyone was dressed up.. except for me.

i was like dudeeeeeeeeeee this is not gooddddddddd

i was thinking running back to the hotel to get changed which is 15 mins away.. BY RUNNING!

but my friend said chill lemme ask them about the dress code.

SURPRISINGLY there are no dress code!

WIWHOWHOHWOHW

we went inside.. and it was awesome shit.

there were tables and chairs in a pool.. wow the first ever.

haha

and We decided to stay outside where the beach is

not many people were around that time.

AND I MET MEEN and Her sister HAHAH WOW~!!!! WHAT A SMALL WORLD!

So we sat together.

And more and more people beginning to fill up that place..

The Djs that were playing that night was DJ goldfish and DJ Bling.

I heard DJ Goldfish played before at Benny Benanssi's concert.. well he was SUPERB!

The countdown and people wereeeeeee wow... never tot that there are people who party as hard as i am.

I met people from Spain, USA, UK and Aussie and IRAQ!

yeah im very friendly when im in the zone. i was highhhhhhh of music!

and of coz i also made friends with the PENANG PEOPLE! YOUUUUUU AREEE AWESOME! :)

Yazmeen partied as hard as i am!

hahaha we dance on the freaking chair!

I screamed till i have no voice left... yeah.. my voice sucks now :)

WE met Aizat and Farhan too!

hahaha they had fun like never before!

urghhhh!!! i miss that party!

i didnt sat even for a while. :)

I have my party partner with me! ahhaha :)

The setting on the beach.

69 Mansion! WOOOO!! Just like the Moon shining.

The Dance Floor

Meen and Her Lovely Sister

Warming uP! :D:D:D

Meen and I. Hahahah such a coincidence that we met WOW!

The Dance Floor when the party started

Party Peopleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!

The Best Party Animal that night! LIKE SERIOUSLY! and we are still on the chair when the photo is taken!

Alrighty!

Its a good start for this year!

WAYYYYYY WAY BETTER if compared to last year.

Thank You GOD!

I LOVE YOU! :)

Im alive and im loving it! :)

Goodnight!

Tomorrow is my first day of work with new companyyyyyyyyyy!!

Excited! XD

Night night people.

And Lastly, HAPPY NEW YEAR! :)

Lots and lots of LOVE,

Why I wanted to have a fucking awesome NYE's party this year!

2011-01-01T13:23:00.012-05:00

It has been a fucking year! YEAHHHHHHHHHHH! Happy New Year! Welcome 2011!

Lemme tell you something, last year on 31st December something hit

me hard deep inside. I lost my control and self esteem and EVERYTHING in the process.

After all the tornado that happened, I was left alone in that fucking dark room.

I rocked back and forth to stay calm.

I fell asleep on the floor. In the middle of the night, near to midnight i woke up to

just get up and just rest on the bed overlooking the window.

I was too tired. Everything that happened, happened to fast.

Too many information to be digested.

Hurtful ones.

The ones that changed me into a more stronger person.

The clock struck at 12 am..

All i can see was the glittering lights in the sky

and people were screaming HAPPY NEWWW YEARRRRR.

And Washington Street was hyperactive and full with uplifting energy of the Young and Professional who inhibits Hoboken.

I can only imagine how happy they were celebrating at Times Square and everywhere else.

But i was alone sunken with deep depression i didnt have the urge to have fun.

I closed my eyes and the dreams were not helping too.

I woke up the next morning with emptiness and in hellish state... the agony the pain was just too much.

I looked at my phone with thousands of phone calls. but none from who i wanted attention from.

I was hungry, went to the fridge, nothing.

Saw some leftovers on the kitchen counter, the food doesnt seemed to be fresh.

Its like im eating food from the garbage.

But i thought, oh what the hell, i dont care. I ate it.

And when back to sleep.

I woke up somewhere in the next moning.

Yeah more than 48hours of sleeping.

Tell me about it.

Still the depression didnt help.

The dreams wait let me rephrase NIGHTMARES! didnt help at all.

It only made it worst and the voices keep on bugging me

I sat at the edge of my bed.

Thinking of doing something stupid.

I went to the computer to search for soemthing stupid.

and i found a website.

The room was dark and cold and.. the atmosphere of someone died.

well i did 'died' that day... just like a zombie.

I feel detached... i saw myself like a 3rd person perspective..

I was going haywire. My head.... just spinning in a downward spiral..

This website said that if i wanna do something stupid,

"1st read that paragraph below"

They want me to call someone closer and who can help.

I know i need help but i cant find anything.

I picked up my phone and call Anna.

She helped me a lot.

She asked me to seek help from a professional.

Thats when i met DR. Jodi

All in all Im fucking stonger now.

I can stand alone with the help of everything and everyone.

Thank You for your attention and help.

Welcome 2011! Fuck yeahh great start! :D i partied like a rockstar, i lost my voice again... haahahah.. FAT BASS!

and im tired and sleeepy, just got back from a roadtrip to penang. I cant even open my eyes now.... =.=

p/s: Ill talk about the NYE Beach party at penang soon! :) and maybe some pictures along with it...

@Laundry

2010-12-12T10:17:00.003-05:00

We went to the laundry on saturday!

Hasif tagged along with us.

Fad, Hariz, wid, and couple of their friends were there..

Laundry was 'dry' as in.... boring

no one wanna step up to be the crowd pleaser to bring the atmosphere up.

SO! as always! hahaha yeah i know. :P

As ALWAYS hazim is there to save their night.

We made the club very lively!

hahaha hasif had fun!

i made couple of new friends from dubai and france. :0

Party people.

well im a party animal.. so yeah, im more fun!

HAHAHAHAH!

The dj was having fun too :0

glad she had fun.

im sure coz the crowd is responding to the songs.. well yeahhhhh

because of me of course :D

The WOO guy hahahaha

Anyhow, im sick.

and to make matters worst... its monday! Fudge1!!!!

have to work.

i dont know how am i going to wake up tomorrow morning.

my alarm clock aka mommy

is in paris with dad.. :(

Hope they will have fun as much as me and hasif did! :D

SO!

Friday! Guestlist? any takers :)

hahaha yeah i have very good cables now.

Coz every fucking week ill be out there.

changkat or Zouk.

hahaha

self acclaimed title.

Party animal and crowd pleaser :)

OKOK!

have to stop rambling.

im high on drugs btw.

drugs as in runny nose drug.

:D! sweet

nighty night guys!

WOOOHOO!! when i feel heavy metal... WOOHOO!!

Blur - Song 2

2010-12-12T10:13:00.001-05:00

I got my head checked
By a jumbo jet
It wasn't easy but nothing is
No

When I feel heavy metal
And I'm pins and I'm needles
Well I lie and I'm easy
All of the time I am never sure
Why I need you
Pleased to meet you

I got my head done
When I was young
It's not my problem
Just not my problem

When I feel heavy metal
And I'm pins and I'm needles
Well, I lie and I'm easy
All the time and I'm never sure
Why I need you
Pleased to meet you

Yeah, yeah Yeah, yeah Yeah, yeah Oh, yeah

Choices. For Nadia

2010-11-21T11:30:00.006-05:00

I am here

Here am I.

With the choices that i made.

Dont know whether its right or wrong.

Let me explain.

I dont know how to differentiate between need and want.

Besides that, i dont wanna be like that monster.

Giving you all the hopes and tying you up in a knot where its impossible to untangle.

Then one fine morning, i just went away.

Which one is more evil?

Both are evil, i know.

Im not sure.

Is being sure the right one?

or being unsure is the right one?

I dont know.

I feel its unfair for you to wait and wonder

Its only fair for you to be free and have fun.

I will never make the same mistake like she did.

Its hard for me to see you go, honestly.

Its very hard, and fuck i just have to be strong

It HURTS so bad i don't know why.

but i have to let you go because im even not sure of myself.

and its good that you've chosen your path.

I'm happy for you.

One day, u will be happy like you always dreamed for.

Im sorry to keep you waiting.

I dont know what ill do now.

I guess she made the mistake to not let me go

was because she dont wanna feel what im feeling now.

Its somewhat fucked up.

But i have to go through this, so that you will be happy soon.

to make all this vanish for you.

I dont know how you feel like now.

It must be hellish.

But i know, you will smile in no time :)

Remember that after the storms there will be a rainbow.

I just wanna thank you for you time and energy and everything.

FOR ELEVEN MONTHS!

to make me become stronger and you didnt care, even though it hurts you so bad.

I guess that is love.

To be in a hellish position to see the people you love happy.

I know that you loved me so much.. and im still being a child, i want to explore and all taht bullshit.

Our goals are conflicting each other which makes things more heavy and crazy and more.

;'(

Thank You Nadia.

Thank You Very Much.

Im always will be in debt with you.

If you need any help, if you need someone to comfort you,

if you ever need anything, you know where to find me.

Ill try my best to be there for you like you did for me.

Hope you will be alright soon! like really soon.

Shine the world with your bright smile.

Stun the world with your big heart.

Show them your sugary personality.

Because baby you're one hell of a person.

I always love your smile. :)

Be happy and keep on smiling.

as for me, ill try to find myself again.

Good luck Nadia.

Thank you for everything.

- HD

Movie: Hot Tub Time Machine (2010)

2010-11-10T06:01:00.002-05:00

This movie... is fucken hilarious!

Douchy kinda like.But i really really think that they could have done better..

Its all over the place.

4/5

Watch it.

Movie: Leap Year

2010-11-10T05:57:00.002-05:00

Lovely and Funny.

The girl is cute but i think she is way hotter in Sunshine Cleaning (2009)

3/5

Cheers

Movie: Scott Pilgrim VS The World

2010-11-09T02:23:00.004-05:00

I know in the states, they had released this movie long time ago.

Heck, its not even out yet in Malaysia.

Lemme tell you something about this movie!

Its super INTERACTIVE!

Its different than other movies and heck yes its awesome!

For me, this movie deserved a 5/5 :)

Its a must WATCH!

Plus its MICHAEL CERA!

He looks awesome in his fighting scenes!

Have fun!!

Oh before i forget,

THE SOUNDTRACKS ARE OFF THE WALL!

Holiday.

2010-11-04T19:43:00.003-04:00

Im gonna have fun this weekend with my family.

Its November 5th.

The date where i first crashed, last year.

But this year.

November 5th, i spend the morning.. very early morning with someone that i really care about.

Thank you dear. :D

I had a great night/morning hehehe!

Today, im going to Kijal.

The last time i went there, was 2 years back. In the year of 2008.

THIS YEAR! im going to wipe the memory off.

GOLF! oh yes, ive been playing golf recently.

hehe.

Gonna beat you DAD!

No driver, IRONs only!

Happy Deepavali by the way.

Cheers!

Another 2 months!

and i hope ill be free from all this shit.

:) Giddy up Hazim

Movie: Red

2010-10-28T05:32:00.005-04:00

RED! has an extremely A CLASS line up of actors!

Rotten tomatoes the well known movie critic web site gave this movie a very high ratings.

Very rare i must tell yeah.

Go watch it at your cinema nearby!

Fun + action.

Bruce Willis never fails to make the spectators in awe.

His acting is explicitly awesome!

Ratings: 5/5 MUST WATCH!

Movies

2010-10-28T05:26:00.005-04:00

I tot The Ghostwriter is going to be a let down. But actually

the movie is pretty amazing! Scandals and conspiracy.

Nice touch!

Ratings: 4.5/5

Up in the Air!

I was also skeptical with this movie

But its a must watch movie :)

4/5
Centurion!

hm... If you like Gladiator + Robin Hood

well this is the movie for you :)

Ratings 3.5/5

These 3 movies wont let you down. They are all awesome. They have their own tingling features that will keep you at your seat! WATCH THEM! :)

Movie: Robin Hood

2010-10-28T05:22:00.002-04:00

This movie is awesome.

Cate Blanchett and Russell Crowe were great in this movie

The story line is indulging.

Ratings: 4.5/5

Movie: Predators

2010-10-28T05:17:00.003-04:00

As u all know, yes im self labeling myself as a movie buff!

I love movies.
Watched tonnes of them.

So,

Watched 5 movies this week.

Predators.

A good line up! the actors and actress.

Storyline: Typical predators story.

Ratings: im giving it 3/5

Blog

2010-10-27T22:36:00.001-04:00

I think im going to stop blogging

May I Speak Freely?

2010-10-21T00:49:00.004-04:00

Good Day it is.

Now playing : Nothing But You - Paul Van Dyk // Crush - Paul Van Dyk

I have nothing much to say..

Love,

A man's Love is to their wife,

A woman's Love is to their children,

A child's Love is to their parents,

To feel love, is everybody's privilege.

To have love, is everybody's desire.

To meet love, is somebody's passion.

Speak from your heart.

If you have a heart.

Ditch your anger,

to feel higher,

Feel your fears,

To be braver.

Know your weaknesses,

to be stronger,

Smile at arrogant people,

to be humble,

Be a modest one,

to be more superior.

The seeds of my traits.

-HD

Have a nice one people.

Past,Present and Future? Where are you? Fantasy or Reality?

2010-10-05T17:49:00.006-04:00

After all the hustle bustle i had.

Laughters, anger, and frustrating NIGHT!

not to mention i lost in the poker game, Fifa and also PES!

Oh My God, everything is jumbled up....

its 550am now,

I just walked into my cold room...

and i just noticed something...

Its like i cant tell whether what im doing now or what did i do..

is reality or fantasy..

Its like i dont have a present nor a past or even a future..

wow. it just hit me.

I cant even remember what i did yesterday.. i choose not to remember..

or even last week.. i cant remember SHIT! like... when i played soccer or what i ate..

ohmygod this is serious..

i dont remember stuff.. shit.

Zaianne asked me whether im alright.

I dont know whether im alright.

I have this... newly created attitude..

I choose not to have any relation/attachment with the past.

It does not matter whether it is yesterday.. or 2 days ago.. or even last week..

Everyday, every morning.

Ill be like reseting myself again and again and again..

and the thing that scares me the most is.. when am i going to stop reseting stuff or memory?

Yes i know ive learned not to have a very deep attachment with the past..

If not ill get myself tangled in the cave of hurtful shit.

Of course i dont want to..

but the thing is i need to learn to prioritize to have to to not have an attachment with the past memory..

Damn. This is really really mind boggling.

Why cant i have a deep attachment with the past?

Fuck i dont know whats wrong.

the only thing that comes out of my head is just my body telling me not to get hurt anymore.

but fuck. when can i get control of myself.

and not letting my unconscious mind has all the power?

I had this dream about everything..

im somewhere far.. and i can see thing just from afar.

I see her. I see you. i see everything. but im somewhere isolated.

I cant say a thing. i just can see..

I guess that tells me that i dont want to get myself in anything.

Even the past or the present.

Still im stuck somewhere.

I need to find myself.

Come to think of it. i think i seriously have big mental issues.

wow. i never thought that it is that serious.

But relax hazim. relax.

I know ill get myself better. No matter what. No matter how.
Ill be alright 100%.

Every memory is getting fade..

its fading. i dont know whether i should be happy or sad.

I want to remember my first girlfriend till i die.

and i dont want to remember anything about her.

i guess that comes the conflict huh?

Past, Present and Future

Sigh.

But seriously. there are some parts of me saying.. "hey its better this way, youll be happy always and youll never get hurt"

and i guess 'iam' right.

Urghhhh i feeeel sick thinking about this.

you know what does it mean by BERCELARU?

haaa yeah.. i dont know what is that! in english..

seriously it feels dark and sick.

maybe im too tired.

Gotta wait for subuh...

I dont know whats gonna happen in the future,

I dont know who i am now.

I dont know who i was in the past.

Im very different each day.

I have no name and soul.

Where am i?

Where are you?

Where?

......... still searching.

-HD

Guilt

2010-10-04T16:34:00.002-04:00

I feel so guilty.

Im sorry dear.

Im so sorry...

I know sorry is just a word. but sometimes when we are out of words, thats the only word that i could think of right now.

Fuck. I hate feeling this. This feelin of being a fucking monster.

I know i hurt you the most. :(

Im sorry.

Post No 501

2010-10-04T09:16:00.003-04:00

Today is one hell of a day.

Early morning we went to driving range,...

it was tiring..

Then, we went out for a lunch

After lunch, i was sleepy but these guys wont let me sleep.

They wanna play poker!

Fuck! Poker at 3pm??!?!??!?!?!

After poker, we went to buy fishes for a alifs pond

then cendol,

then i was completely flat out...

i slept..

till....

10 mins ago..

god damn it!

still tired.

Of ranting and gloomy night

2010-10-03T16:03:00.005-04:00

Just got back from TTS with the guys @AL Safa, Damansara.

Its raining now,

and hm i was like.. lets listen to Late Night Alumni..

and.. i feel like writing something,

and i feel like.. something.

So of course, music of the day .. late night's

I cant help it. To just let my self think about everything. :)

It has been a very long journey..

From who i was before till who i am now.

The journey of my life so far.

*grin*

But right now, its like im stuck.

Cant go anywhere,

Cant move anywhere,

I just wanna stay still.. when people come and pick me up.

I still wanna stay there, untouched..

Its just me i guess. Sometimes i wanna knock my head up.

or maybe its just the song.

I guess its time to let me go.

heh.

Let me go.

God showed me his plan of my life.

And i dont get what's God's point.

Its not the time maybe..

I miss slow dance.

Just let myself being carried away in that moment.

urgh.

I need to go somewhere, where there is no mechanical noise.

By the seaside?

On the waterfall?

Or somewhere where the grass is green, the sky is clear where we can see the blinking stars.

The weather is mild. Not too hot, not too cold.

The wind blows slowly.

Just breathe in and breathe out, fresh air.

anddddddddd nothing.

Nyte

Sigh

2010-10-01T15:36:00.003-04:00

After a great night/day,

always i mean really always, ill be feelin a bit down after everything ends.

The more fun that night/day, the more ill be down right after..

Sigh.. Sigh..

Why do people live their life without any worries?

Why do people live their life without any regrets?

Why do people live their life without anything in mind?

are they robots? or am i living in the world of only-hazim-has-worries-world?

Bullshit!

Or am i just the one who thinks that way,

and people do think a lot and they just do not show it to people..

I guess so, the thing is, i wanna be happy, but deep inside, i know im trying too hard to be happy.

Im trying way harder than any other people.

And people perceive me as a happy go lucky person.

:) well i dont blame them. I choose people who i can be sad with, talk about stuff and such.

I choose to be more reserve when theres people who wants to shine off the table or in the circle of friends.

and just watch.. their attitude, their way of talking, body language, face expression, and more.. i can tell whether that person is braggin or telling shit!

then ill be quiet.. haha.. alone and needs the solidarity period..

When im thinking, yeah, ill be a lil bit quiet.. Habil knows what im talking about.. i guess he is the only friend who knows when im in that stage..

Sigh,

Im jobless for the past 3 months,

my drive to work is getting lesser each day.

Rejection after rejection.

Time after time..

You know how tiring it is..

I dont know what im doing now..

I dont know whether what i did is right or wrong,

A friend of mine came to me, and we talked about business,

i said.. yeah fine no worries..

But you know i still talk to my dad about stuff, and my dad says no!

i was like... why no!

he said.. bla bla bla bla liability shit bla bla bla bank loan.. i didnt think of that.

coz i think about the company will strive in the projects and stuff...

sigh.

I wanna be successful!

I wanna get that IR.

but day after day... the drive...is gone~

Gone with the slow moving time..

Sigh. Yeah i know im a loser..

About that, when i go out with my friends, i cant help it to think that im the most UNATTRACTIVE guy in the group..

In the club, ill be sweating like a pig coz i like to jump and scream,

cant be a pussy magnet.

and!

I can be a very jealous person,

I envy my friend who has a job.. living their life without their parents money..

I envy my friend who has a car.. their own car..

I envy my friend who has their own company.. their own company with 'cables'strong ones! we're talking about the government people..

I envy them so much..

And about love..

LOL! whereeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee is love!

damn it. Where are you?!

but i wanna be successful first.

Sigh.

People say.. your time will come.

But how should i know that THAT is my time to strive in this materialistic world.

I dont wanna run in that 'hamster wheel'!

like no!

but i have to! no matter what...

maybe im too ambitious.

yeah maybe.. :(

that sucks.. sucks balls sigh.

*sleeping on the keyboard*

HAIH!!!!!!!!!

where is WORK!

and the thing is when they offer me.. they offer me... like... none engineering type of job!

damn it!! im still young and i have the will to learn!!!!!!!! whatsoever!

give me a fucking chance! damn it!

Done! Zip it! Kaput! Nada~

Nyte people!

Fuck you relationship ruiner! Fuck you!

Happy Birthday Dad! :)

2010-10-01T00:00:00.000-04:00

Happy Birthday Ayah!

Semoga dimurah kan rezeki dan dipanjangkan umur!

I Love you! :)

Doa.

2010-09-30T16:35:00.001-04:00

Ya Allah Ya Tuhan ku

Murah kan la rezeki kami Ya Allah

Permudahkan la urusan hidup kami Ya Allah.

Tunjukkan la kami ke jalan yang benar.

Amin!

Work

2010-09-25T14:54:00.001-04:00

I wanna start working really bad.

Like really really bad :(

I think hanging out session is boring already.

Coz its all the same.

No more eye candies. Coz i dont feel like to

But partying is another story

At least i can jump and sweat :)

I need a break. Please Sapura call me

Saturday Night

2010-09-24T16:50:00.003-04:00

Just got back after a boy's night out.

Were at Werner's.

We had fun.

I had fun.

Screaming and dancing and shit.

But.. right now, im feeling a bit down.

I dont know why.

Somebody spike my drink?

but i always check twice before i drink my drink..

Right now. I just dont know why im down.

it sucks you see..

seriously sucks..

I guess i let out of layers of my anger and shit.

and right now, just the sadness left

I need to cry.

but i cant cry coz i dont know why im down.

LOL

sounds stupid but seriously it really is.

I need to cry.

Hopefully tomorrow will be alright.

Goodnight people.

Bye.

A success or A failure.

2010-09-21T09:02:00.005-04:00

I successfully shoo away everyone that is close to me.

Females of course.

Hm.

A success to be happy and sparing myself from the heartache.

A failure for me to establish a concrete affiliation with people.

Dang.

Be strong Hazim. Yes I will ma'facker.

P/S: By the way, who are you to judge that they are bimbos? i thought you told me that you are not a judgmental person? hm a joke than huh? goodjob

Engagement and Love

2010-09-20T23:29:00.006-04:00

A special shoutout to Apok: Congratulations Bro for your engagement. INVITE ME to your wedding. coz you didnt even tell me about your engagement. That hurts weh. hahah. Anyway congratulations still.

Lots of my friends are now engaged or even married.

hm.. i dont know how i could get to that stage.

The urge to get married or even have someone special died and rots in hell.

Sigh.

Sometimes i wonder, what would it be if i were to have that 'feelings' again. Well sometimes i feel lonely and thats when you need the warmth of that someone special. Thats it. Other than that, i dont it need it. I have my PS3 with me. LoL! I admit its fun to watch people when they are happy in love. Im happy for whoever in love. and ill be pissed when they are falling out of love. Because they are destroying the most sacred, precious and wonderful feeling in the universe.

Have faith in it and think about people who question its existance.. like me. Do you even wanna be like this, in this condition? I hope not. If youre a believer, stay as one. If youre not, try to be one.

But to the utmost matter, im happy and im surrounded by friends who are willing to entertain me and not being judgmental with whoever im friends with!

How long its gonna be that way. well i dont fecking know. Let me be. like seriously. Dont mess with my head saying this and that. I dont need that now. When the time comes, then so be it. At the mean time, im going to enjoy my singularity and my freedom as one.

P/S: To the motivational words.. It did showed me whats real. And it burns whoever is not real to me. Thankful for that. and what im made of? im made of STEEL! and im proud of my self to rise from that distasteful and foul event. :) Hoooah! I know that nothing will make me that low again. Im strong :)

Oh btw, currently playing Red Dead Redemption again after a while. Hey IT IS still really is a fun game.

Cheerios! Wooop Hoooah!

:)

2010-09-08T15:58:00.004-04:00

The day that ive been waiting for!

Selamat Hari Raya People!

Maaf Zahir dan Batin.

Happy Eid Mubarak

Please forgive my wrongdoings! notice the s! haha PLURAL! :)

come on.. just a little bit more. :)

Nov 5th.

Just a little bit more!

P/S: the date is somewhat significant to me. And dont think ahead okay? its not because someone is coming or wtv! Its for me. It marks something for me

:)

2010-09-07T16:06:00.001-04:00

So far so good! :)

I love my life now :D

Hooah!

New World Order newest stuff

2010-09-06T17:10:00.010-04:00

Im not asking the readers to believe in all this shit.

But hey its out there. Its coming whether you like it or not.

Brace yourself.

You cannot ignore this stuff anymore.

Because its everywhere.

From NYC especially Rockefeller center to Malaysia. (1MALAYSIA)

damn. It really is every fucking where.

As we all know with all this satanic stuff..

Well its closer than we thought.

They are now very very forward with what they are trying to say.

Lady Gaga

Jay Z

Beyonce

Rihanna

Kanye West

TI! cant believe man. he is one of them now. Song : Pledge Your Allegiance With the Swag damn.

Eminem. I dont know which song, but i could pick up some freemasonry wordings. Trust me on this.

Lil Wayne

Taylor Swift.

And many more!!

hm. Maybe they are the pawns of entertainment business

http://www.theyliveandwesleep.com

Check that out!

Urgh. cant believe that we cant do anything at all.

By the way, maybe the blacks are trying to control the world. That is just another theory.

Well thats fine as long as not Satan.

But we will see though.

Who's who.

The director of Kanye West's newest music video.
Fucking scary as shit.

I could see lots and lost of satanic symbols and shit.

The most apparent is the Baphomet!

Now Kanye west's music video.

Look at them.
Flaunting everything.
they are really powerful now. Hence, the music video..

Damn.

"I’m livin’ in the 21st century
Doin’ something mean to it
Do it better than anybody you ever seen do it
Screams from the haters, got a nice ring to it"

"In this white man’s world, we the ones chosen

So goodnight, cruel world, I see you in the mornin’"

"N-gga, no one man should have all that power
The clock’s tickin’, I just count the hours
Stop trippin’, I’m trippin’ off the power
‘Til then, f-ck that, the World’s ours"

"Lost in translation with a whole f-ckin’ nation
They say I was the obamanation (abomination) of Obama’s nation"

"I got the power, make yo’ life so excitin"

"Now this would be a beautiful death
Jumpin’ out the window
Lettin’ everything go
Lettin’ everything go

You got the power to let power go"

We are just helpless.

Till they get what they want.

May god be with us always.

Show us the way Dear God.

For more info about the music video : http://vigilantcitizen.com/?p=4576

Btw, i found out about all of this satanic stuff long before vigilantcitizen or The arrivals made their debut.

So, when i watch or read up about the symbols on that website or the arrivals.

HECK its the same.

Everyone is picking up on it.

Why not you?

Lets try and fight this.

Goodluck people.

P/S: btw vigilantcitizen didnt pick up on this. If you look closely theres a paper on Kanye's left hand. And this goes hand in hand with one of vigilantcitizen picture. A msg? maybe? to who?

For what? A msg to the world that a new king will rise getting the 33rd level in the illuminati?

Who knows.. damn.

Time

2010-09-04T17:37:00.008-04:00

As i was surfing the internet.

I clicked on the youtube tab..

"Maksim - Somewhere in Time"

Some beautiful melody played in the background.

And puff i got this idea..

Out of nowhere, i thought about the times when i was just trying to feel what is actually "love"

Approximately, 4 years ago or so, the skype thing was kinda new for me.

I was down, well yeah of course, i cant get my ass to the States..

I sat down on my couch..

Just sat there..

With tears on my cheeks..

Regretting everything.

So, ive added some of my friends on the skype.

And we began to chat like hours and hours.

Someone, i dont remember who, suggested to me,

While youre not doing anything..

Try and watch all the love movies.

And so i did.

One movie after another..

The Notebook

Dirty Dancing 1 and 2

Shall We Dance

A Walk to Remember

Centerstage (not exactly a love movie but i was inspired by it)

and.. so much more.

I was so deeply touched.

And i began to miss this someone so much.

The chase was hellish. yes. After time goes by, i dont know whats right and whats wrong.

Im blinded. Gagged.

But nevertheless, it didnt happened.

I learnt something though.

To love and to be loved by someone.

Now, im trying to find back my roots.

Who i was before all of these.

How i lived my life without the significant other presence.

The thing is i cant never forget what happened.

Its like a dark path in my journey to find the right one.

That event gave me two choices.

To learnt how to face that like an adult which i did not.

Or to just never ever walk on that same path again.

Its like my path is being block by tonnes of big boulders.

I chose the second choice.

Im still getting to know myself.

The other side of me.

The one who cares about his friends

and the one who care less about love.

How is it like to be a single person?

How is it like to be fun without being in love?

How is it like to be when youre not in love?

So far it has been a good and fun experience.

But i wont lie, i miss the side of me who could love and someone who wants to be loved.

Somehow, im just not in the mood.

When i see happy couples past by me, i wonder, why cant i be like them again.

All mushy2 with each other.

The laughters

The smiles

and the fuzzy feeling when you are around each other.

Still not in that mood.

My friends said im not ready yet.

Yeah i know im not.

Time. Time. Time. From not a cliche to something that is very annoying.

But how can i tell whether im in love or im not if my previous experience are not the right experience?

How can i tell that that person is the right one for me?

How can i tell that i wont get hurt again?

How can i feel that again?

I dont want to be vulnerable again.

I dont want to be deceived

I just dont.

Ive meet up with lots of girls that are very nice.

Well one of them is. She is. Really is.

But the others, i cant help to think that maybe this girl is some shit.

Right?

So i really cant be that.

They could just be an object to play around and "you can fuck off now"

The thing is im not like that.

I wish i could be that. but im not.

Its either its a yes or a no.

I know somehow i could be the whole hazim again. Who knows how long will i take to be hazim again.

The one who gave up the other half of him to fit another half of hers.

That's the real Hazim i knew.

The one who puts the concept of love on a pedestal.

The one who is caring and loving.

Yes i was that. Dont laugh! Its not funny.

That which turns me into this.

The one who fills the other half of him with anger and hate.

The one who just wanna have fun.

Well actually, its not that bad.

I began to love who i am now.

Maybe thats the key to break the thick black wall between me and vulnerability.

Maybe i want to be vulnerable. Maybe thats what makes love beautiful.

Hahah i wont lie yeah. The minute i wrote that, i can hear the voice from the back of my head

saying.. love is not beautiful and love is shit.

hahaha.

See,i even have a conflict within me.

haha!

I cant help noticing that life is beautiful :)

Ups and Downs. Its an adventure. :) Im galloping around the world with less expectation!

Which makes life even more beautiful :D

Lol.

Now, i dont know what to write anymore.

I still have...... lots of parts to read before raya :(

So, happy fasting.

and.. oh its not raya yet.

Just that for now.

Cheers!

This is True!!!!!! :P

2010-09-04T06:19:00.003-04:00

"Or get lucky with a doctor"

From Stuffnoonetoldme.blogspot.com

Hahahahaha epic! :D

Timbaland - Apologize (feat. One Republic)

2010-09-03T19:49:00.002-04:00

Now this song really makes sense.

I'm holding on your rope
Got me ten feet off the ground
And I'm hearing what you say
But I just can't make a sound

You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down, but wait
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around and say

That it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

I'd take another chance, take a fall
Take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
But that's nothing new, yeah yeah

I loved you with a fire red, now it's turning blue
And you say sorry like the angel
Heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late, whoa whoa

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

I said it's too late to apologize, yeah
I said it's too late to apologize, yeah

I'm holding on your rope
Got me ten feet off the ground

"You say sorry like the angel, ahah! clicheeee clichee!"

I was just surfing on the youtube.

and i found this old song.

No it didnt bring up the memories or shit.

but i just noticed that the song makes sense now.

Btw, i LOVEEEEEE the song's beats!

Awesome! :)

cant get enough of it.

Cheers.

This is True!!

2010-09-02T06:14:00.001-04:00

From stuffnoonetoldme.blogspot.com

That is fucking true.

Found a new funny blog.

2010-09-02T06:10:00.001-04:00

Thanks to Nadia :)

http://stuffnoonetoldme.blogspot.com/

Its funny and original!

SWWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEET!

RE: Guys Nite Out with Guys! haha

2010-09-01T17:00:00.004-04:00

Yes Nadia tag along with us for a guys night out.

And yes that night, uhh no eye candy at all. sooooooo that sucked.

But yes we had fun among ourselves.

Thats good.

We have different types of people and laughing together.

Thats what i needed.

And about the chicks.

Thats second objective.

The first one is to get together and have fun! :)

We wont have that kind of fun when we're married or occupied.

Btw, about the plastics.

Yes we know how to differentiate between jewels and plastics.

But for fun, you know, plastics.

Whereas for serious relationship, of coz we will chose the jewels :)

And we hung out at Wan's shisha's place.

:) Showru! at KJ :)

Had fun and of coz wan made his special shisha blend for free!

Thanks wan

And showru's food is quiet good or nice or acceptable :)

And i just found out that my leeds mates knew Wan! hahaha nice.

What a small world.

Cheers! :)

Happy Independence Day Malaysia/ NFS Hot Pursuit!

2010-08-31T05:49:00.000-04:00

Its 31st august.

Happy Independence Day!

But the action starts at the eve of that special day.

We decided to search for fireworks.

It was already late... around 1130pm

Habil, Alif, Jackie and I were just exiting Subang.

Alif brought us to this place where he said last year it was quite beautiful.

Somewhere behind The Curve.

So we waited. The clock struck at 12.oopm!
But still......

*crick crick*

Nothing.

While smoking, we heard a loud sound coming from way back of us.

There must be an accident, we reckoned.

A white satria neo passed by us.

He made a u-turn. We noticed that his front bumper is slightly damaged.

We just watched him went away. Out of nowhere, theres a bike chasing after him screaming.

That he hit something.

We couldn't hear shit.

Frustrated cause there were no fireworks.

We thought that guy hit some car and run.

After 10 mins, we called it off.

Planned to go to rasta for some TTS.

We have to make a u-turn too since its a dead end.

Then from far ahead. We saw a school of people hoarding at one place.

We stopped by and found out that it is a policeman sitting down. Still not fully conscious. Bleeding with a broken leg.

We told the cops that we saw the car. Gave then the number and type of car.

and Off we go!! To rasta!

We were thinking that it was very stupid of that driver to hit and run A FREAKING COP!

How foolish!

Plus, we heard that he run away to TTDI area.

We were at a traffic light and theres the car.

We were like ALIF STEP ON THE GAS!!

Tail that fucking car. (of coz we didnt swear, hahaha just adding some effects to this story)

hahaha i was so fucking excited.

Then theres a car tailing behind him.

We thought it must be his friend to cover up his plate number

Jackie called up the police

and start feeding information to them from me. :)

Im the night watcher hahahahahah!

BJF 41 the culprit. White neo

and some wira car the devil's advocate. Couldnt remember the number but i kept it save somewhere.

Then, they stopped by at Jalan Burhanuddin Helmi 1.

We saw their faces and we just passed by

and we waiting in the bushes ahead. Of coz in the car.

After a few minutes,

they moved with the lights off.

By this time, we were like in a freaking frenzy mode .

Jackie even told the cops to block them somewhere!

but yeah... slow as usual.

We are in a pursuit of the suspect car, Jackie screamed to the phone.

The chase went on for like 1omins.

We tailed them from TTDI to Plus exiting Damansara.

Called it off because we lost sight and have no money to pay for the toll

hahahah.

Nevertheless, it was a great freaking night.

Never felt that nervous in a long time

IT WAS NERVE WRECKING!!!

wooooooooooo took me a while to calm down

was soo overwelmed.

As usual, we stopped by Rasta to drink and when to Darus to eat.

I ended my night with alif and his dad by playing his RC helly!

haha at 4am!

how cool! :)

Thanks 31st August!

It was fun! :)

Cheers!

Quote of the Day

2010-08-27T03:12:00.003-04:00

“Watching you walk out of my life does not make me bitter or cynical about love. But rather makes me realize that if I wanted so much to be with the wrong person how beautiful it will be when the right one comes along.” - FUCKING ANONYMOUS

All my broken hearted friends love this poem.

Even people who doesnt believe in love.

Why?

Because this poem brings out the positive energy that is being caused by a hurtful experience that creates the negative energy.

Its like thinking that the glass is half full, instead of the glass is half empty.

I was like, if i wanted so bad to be with that person, which is apparently the wrong person, i was really trying and i felt that the feelings are genuine.

Omg

It would be out of this world if the right person suddenly emerge in my life.

Maybe that person has already emerge but i didnt notice it yet or mmaybe not.

But think about it.

cool stuff huh? :)

Cheers to life!

got a call from..

2010-08-25T03:48:00.002-04:00

:) guess what

i got an interview tomorrow~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

for Sapura Crest.

Wish me LUCK! I need it all. :P

Alhamdulillah! :D

1. Resume Check!

2. Certs Check!

3. Picture...

4. Company background..

Uh i hate homework!

TTS + Fantasy Premier League = err... still nothing

2010-08-23T15:58:00.002-04:00

Few nights.. it has been the same shit all over.

Nothing.

We are bored every night

Searching for things that will excite us!

Yeah, gals are one of them.

So.

We've been talking about FPL every night too.

well thats because its weekend and there are games played every night.

we played snooker and thats it

I met with jay who is on the way to play CS

and i think he is focking wasted

hahahah

jay jay!

We checked out the bapoks

and run hahahahahha

that was fucking hilarious.

There is this one thing that im scared to talk about.

Fights and arguments.

I dont wanna be in a relationship

but when i fight or argue..

it reminds me of being in one shitty relationship.

And i hate that.. thats why ive been avoiding the talk or even to meet up.

Sorry. yeah thats all i can do huh?

But i just cant take it now.

Im sorry.

Gonna watch Crows Zero which they have been talking about.

Wanna check out whats the hype is all about.

And i wonder what is it like to work at the Balkan Sea.

:)

2010-08-21T02:18:00.002-04:00

Going back to ipoh at 4pm.
Gonna get back to sleep in a while.

Btw, a special shout out to nadia.
Thanks!

Aizat just called. gonna have to be at the policce station now.
BYE!

Iron & Wine - Flightless Bird, American Mouth

2010-08-19T17:46:00.003-04:00

Somebody was like. hey try and listen to this song.
Of coz, i listened to it.. And haha i knew this song..
I remember listening to it when i was a child.
Im still a child now. hahaha
but yeah you know what i mean.

Its the song of the WEEK!
:)
Im loving it!

To me, the lyrics.. is something. i just cant decipher it..
AND NO its not from twilight shit.
I just hate that movie. so dont fuck around calling me i found it on Twilight.
Fuck that shit..

But yeah the song is soothing.
and calming. :)

haaaaaa~~

another boring post

2010-08-19T15:13:00.002-04:00

It has been raining for a couple of days.

We are out of things to do.
And the minute we decided not to do anything today.
Alif msged me, lets have ciggys.

ahah.
So yeah, went out with alif and azril.
Chill at Darus.
Met with the USJ4 gangs.

Nothing much.
But just laughing at stupid guys talk.
Yeah. its funny btw, well to guys only.

Then, im back at home early!
its 3am now. Opened up my email.
Accenture rejected me.
Sigh.

I dont think im going to get a job soon.
So that means! i could tag along with my family to London..
well thats the plan.
But who knows. :)

Alright. I have to work out to match with Azril's biceps.
ITS MASSIVE!
A drive for me today! :)

Have a nice one guys!

OUT!

TTS part... who cares??!

2010-08-18T17:31:00.003-04:00

We played futsal earlier tonight with the son of Chief Police of Malaysia! GET IT?

HAHA!

Then, we get back home to freshen up and OFF WE GO!

It was raining cats and dogs. I dont get it why do people name the rain in such a way.
dont get it. will never do.

So! i picked up jackie and he said GO TO TAIPAN NOW!
We gotta nab this robber.
I was like whatttttttt about chicks!??
He was like.. later later!!!

We were at taipan like idiots looking for a Fiat Punto.
I dont even know how it looks like.
Alif, Habil, Jackie and I gave up.

Still we dont know where to hang out..
Lastly, hahaha Darus it was.
ceh. darusssssssssssssss je! takde tempat lain ke??!

Wan came with a box of donut which i saw earlier at futsal.
Everybody was like.. LAAAAAAAAAAAAAa its yours!!
hahahah they ate it.
I didnt.

After they finished it, Wan was like.. tadi aku jumpa donut ni!
HAHAHHAAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!!!!!!!!!1
what a sucker!
That was fun!
We didnt do shit. Smoked some ciggys. Ate some indomee.....
played some cards..
and thats IT!!!
OMG its super super boring!

I guess thats a life of jobless people who has nothing to do on the morning after.
Yes! Me as a jobless engineer
Alif as a jobless pilot
Jackie.. well er.. i dont know wwhat to say he is.. i dont kno
And Habil as a jobless architect!

LOL!
what a life!
gonna sleep after subuh and wake up before iftar...

WTHELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!

signing out!

out out out.

:D:):P:O:F:E;B :O::L:LAJSSvfbndmsmdc

Quote of the Day

2010-08-16T18:31:00.003-04:00

"I believe in pink. I believe that laughing is
the best calorie burner. I believe in kissing, kissing a lot. I believe
in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong. I believe that
happy girls are the prettiest girls. I believe that tomorrow is another
day and I believe in miracles." - Katherine Perez

I hope youll get through whatever youre dealing with Kathy.
Because i got through it and i know you will

Your words are.. mesmerizing!

Just.. wow.
Wow-ed me.

Nicely said.

Goodluck Kathy.

TTS part 3

2010-08-16T16:28:00.003-04:00

Today's TTS was an epic failure!

Damn it.

oh but we met okay fine saw Dara and family at Rasta.
Shes...... officially A MILF NOW!
hahahah. my wing men cant get their eyes of her.

And about tonight,,,, i
Dont wanna talk about it.
because we ended up watching the game at Darus.
and it was all sausage fest all over again.

and manchester is leading 2-0
hopefullly it will stay that way! :D

Loving it.

P/S: ill stop social smoking when i learn how to love again. :)

Happy fasting guys and gals.

Secondhand Serenade - Your Call

2010-08-16T00:35:00.001-04:00

TT session 2!

2010-08-15T15:26:00.010-04:00

Teh Tarik Session aka our quest of searching shit to do and shit.. bla bla bla

Rasta is the new Darus!
okay maybe not.
Darus is Darus and Rasta is Rasta.

We watched the game between arsenal and liverpool just now
and yeah i was rooting for arsenal because i hate liverpool
but i hate arsenal too, but liverpool more.
Get what i mean. Nvm i dont care.
The game ended with a draw!

So, about Rasta.
There are lots of "eye candy"
The game of checking out each other yeah.
Quite fun
Cause i never done that before.
Thinking about it, i was never really single after im ready for a relationship.
yeah yeah say what you wanna say.
I was a nerd in high school and uitm (maybe not)

Now, im swimming in the ocean full of fishes. (none is my cup of tea) YET!
Quite fun really.
And adrenalin pumping and shit.
I know im going to get tired of all these mediocre stuff. I KNOW! do not pop my bubble please!
But hey, im having fun am i?
:)

About the checking out game!
It gets really interesting when the other party check you out too!
Thanks to my not-anymore-high-school-method-wing-men!
With the information and stuff, it appears to be possible.
But im too scared! hahah we had a great laugh about that.
HAHAHA omg!
We basically, eye-raped every interesting girl we saw. (Credits to habil, he invented the wword eye rape)

But thats about it.
Nothing physical or nothing serious :)
Just living our live as four ELIGIBLE jobless bachelors of Subang.
Plus, our adventure didnt end there.

We mamak-crawled!
hahahahah yeah theres a name for bar crawl or bar hopping!
but this is different ITS MAMAK CRAWL!
yeah mamak crawl!
To Darus
To Canai
and lastly Darus to eat..

The most important lesson we learned today is after 2 am,
if theres gals, they are either occupied or lesbian or fucked up faces
OKKKKKKKK like my face is not fucked up.
Lets just say, not my cup of tea kind of gals.
There are no decent gals hanging out after 2 am
if there are decent looking gals, they are either cracked up head or looking for a dick to hook up with or cheat with their over protective boyfriend.
DiBs!!! this is the correct way to spell it, I DIBS ON DIBSSSSSSSSS!

But we didnt found any for our quest this week.
Maybe tomorrow will be a new day! :)
and yes it will be!

Fuck i never felt this free before!
Im like a birdddddddd
i wanna fly awayyyY~~~~~
hahahahah!

Free and jobless and the most important thing is that im happy :)
Seriously i do!
Can you imagine that!!! HAPPY! after 8 months! omg! im less angry now:O
and more smiles and cool!

TO A FUCKING BITCH:
btw, USED UP PUSSY!! do not msg me anymore do you hear me!
DO NOT coz i dont even read your msg yeah?
its rubbish coz you are one too.
please go to hell and fuck yourself.
Opppps you did that already! HA HA HA! no im not sorry!
okay? Ahmal "knuckled up" me for that!
Whattttttttttt uppppppppppppp!!
what up!

:)

MANCHESTER VS shit i dont remember!
tomorrow. Hope it will be a great night!
Guys night out till i dont know when! :)

CHEEEEEEEEEERSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS MOTHERFuckerrrrrrrrrrrrssssssssss!!!!!

:D

A new RE-VAMP version of me!

Sahur Log Blog

2010-08-15T05:14:00.003-04:00

Hm i just wanna keep track of what ive eaten during sahur of the Ramadan season.
And i think my weight will increase during the Ramadan season.
So i have to chaangeeeeeeeeeeeee that. like seriously change that.
coz i wanna cut my weight in a month.

Ill update it every day since im JOBLESS!
and its aweeesomeee coz i can sleep after subuh and some other people have to go to school or work. hahahahah!

Sounds interesting..
So here goes.

1st day: 6 slices of breads, 3 sunnyside up eggs, 2 scoop of protein milk, 1 cup of milo, and a bottle of water. Im FULL as HELL!

2nd day: breads (6), an egg, milo and bottle of water. im trying to cut down my freaking weight

3rd day: 2 slices of breads, an egg, milo and water. fuck. my tummy hurts. cant eat that much,

4th and 5th day: 4 slices of breads, 2 eggs, a cup of milo and proteinnnnnnnnn!

6th day: the same stuff i ate yesterday

7th day: Well today, errr i cant stand the urge to not eat! so i decided to eat everything. Burger, double indo mee, roti planta, iced tea, while watching the game.. and back home i ate a bread.

i lost 1 kg this week. well up and down.. at first i gained 3 kg.. i think its all water. coz the next day its gone. but now im back at where i was but 1kg less. :)

8th day: 4 slices of breads, 2 eggs.
9th day: same old shit.

:)

2010-08-14T18:48:00.000-04:00

Okay now lets grow up Hazim.

Yes yes will do!

Teh Tarik Session

2010-08-14T16:33:00.005-04:00

Lemme tell you a story behind my teh tarik session today.
As usual, my friends and i were bored, and at the same time jobless..
That is why
We are always active at night.
NOCTURNAL!!!

So we decided to hang out at Darus today.
Considering our low budget and we are out of gas.

The more time you hang out there, the more people that you know will come by
and hang out together.
We had a blast. haha
Full table with laughter and ciggys and water.
Have to go to the toilet for a couple of times.

After a few hours, and it was 330am.
We were getting ready to go home.
I went to 7e to buy some gum to erase my ciggy smell.. hah! it doesnt work
but heck!
its worth a try.

I stumbled into these two ladies which one of them looked familiar.
I didnt say anything, coz i tot it was somebody else.
When back to Darus i saw it frizzy haired guy.
Hmmm he looked familiar too from behind! HAHAHA
then i screamed RUSYDAN! Yeah Darus is my place..
:P

He looked and WHAT THE HELL!!!
hahahaha
It was him!
and IT WAS NURA TOO!!
i was like what the fuckkkkkkkkkkkkk!!!

small world
Then we had a small chat.. and Nura said she is with her sister..
I looked back and saw her sister is talking to JAckiE!
and ALIF
hahahah
She knew them too!
Alif was her schoolmate
and HABIL was her college mate!
WTF!!!
small fucking world
we ended up sitting at another table and chat for another hour
Because they wanna catch up!

AND NURA IS STAYING NEAR ME!
omg! and i wonder why we didnt bring this up while at leeds!
My Leeds MATEs!
and MY NEWLY FOUND SUBANG MATE!

They said a couple of stuff and ha ha!
no one really like you there!!
seriously. I dont know how youre going to live there bitch!
And safwan too
NO ONE LIKES YOU THERE MATE!
LOL!!!

We had a blast and talk shit about you and your lover.
That was fun!
Even hahahahahah this is cool seriously

"Huh best friend? nooo shes not my best friend!"
No nura didnt say that.
but someone you trust and love and that person is REALLY REALLY your best friend.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!
YOURE FUCKED!

And today, i had this realization.
With all these girls. OF COZ HOTTER AND WAYY WAYYYY BETTER THAN YOU!
why should i "cling on" you?
LOL! thats a joke
Nobody likes you bitch.

There will be a Leeds gathering some time soon
HAHAH we will see how many pretentious-best-friends that youll have.
ILL LAUGH Sinisterly!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

fun fun fun fun!

No youre not the best that i had.
No youre not the most beautiful that i had. yeah LOL!
And NO, I dont love you anymore!
AND IM HAPPY WITH THAT!!!
SUDDEN COOL SHIT HUH!
HAHAHAHA
IM OVER YOU! like seriously.

ok ok
the moral of the story..
Teh tarik session brings everyone together..
and we could meet up with interesting people
Plus, we could even increase the scope of girls that youre going to meet up and
be friends with!

Its not just a hang out sessions
Its a place where we could catch up with each other
Make plans with each other.
De stress you from work and school
Bitch about people
and of coz last but not least.. TEH TARIK + ciggys!

Ill conclude my trip tonight.
with a nice msg to urgh i just cant say your disgusting name:

FUCK YOU and hope youll fall down and never recover.
Be a old hag with no guys that wanna marry you
and please continue to kill yourself and PLEASE SUCCEED YEAH?
I think when you jumped off the building you should die.
With one big reason, so that you wont trouble and cause problems to people around you.
Look what you've done.
I think most of the people that are in your friends list are pretentious and PITY YOU!
LOL!

To them, youre dead. You are no longer one of them.
They are being nice to you only because of COURTESY (your philosophy of life) and trying to be POLITE to a bitch!
Im going to feel sorry for the next guy that youre going to ruin!
Fuck you bitch. Youre dead to me!
and no youre not the best sex i had too. :)
and no youre not the best blowjob i had too :)
and no youre not everything to me anymore! :)

Im sure that you will offer safwan sex to get back together with him!
hahah thats all you could offer to a guy which shows that youre a CHEAP PUSSY SKANK SLUT FUCK
gosh cant believe i dig that before.
YEEARRRHH!!! gotta samak everything man! YUCK!

The funny thing is i longer feel bad saying that to a bitch!
WOHOOOOOOOOOOO!!!
CHEERS TO THAT!

And im fucking happy now!
I see the world differently now!
after 8 months and im feeling way way wayyyyyyyyyyyyyy above everything :)

Tonight is the night :)
Yes tonight is the night!

To all my friends and Nadia and Anna.
Thanks for supporting me and make me realize that she is not worth it at all!
Just a crossroad with rubbish in my life!
Oh not to forget dr. Jodi! :) Thanks!
Oh yes she is still a bitch and cracked up person!

It is going to be Legen----- wait for it!!! --- FUCKING DARYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!

Look out world. The new Hazim is HOME!

IM BACK!

A milestone! :P

2010-08-13T16:49:00.003-04:00

So yes ive been using P90x program for quite a while.

And today, HAHA!

Ive increase the weight of my dumbbell to increase the resistance.
Yeah more reps, but it takes up my time.
So with increased weight it could maintain the one hour long to work out :)

PROUD OF MY-FUcking-SELF :)

Btw, just shut up already.

This is the Story of my Life

Busy

Schranz

Ruffles & Leather

Goofy. Rest In Peace My Dear.

ROCK BOTTOM

Soft Side

Hamster Wheel

This will be..

LMAO

Life

Work

Fights

Stevens Reunion!

The Land Before Time

Business And Friends

Katy :(

Stress Ball

Special Post: Just For Her

Clock is Ticking

Condolences to Sureen's Family.

*Barf*

Killzone 3

One thing

Manchester United is..

Forgetting The Past

Turning into A New Leaf

Of catching up @The Office.

An extraordinary Weekend :)

Hard Enough

hm.

Happy!

Idea

The Story

Dahlia FC

Happy Birthday Alif!

It was AMAZING!

Daily Routine

Childish

Of "I think HD should fill in this form"

at the office.

Holiday

Of Stomach Bug

Again Baby

Happyyy

Decode the new code :D

:)

Busy!!

Work!

Waves

New Year's Partayyy! The Best EVER! :)

Why I wanted to have a fucking awesome NYE's party this year!

@Laundry

Blur - Song 2

Choices. For Nadia

Movie: Hot Tub Time Machine (2010)

Movie: Leap Year

Movie: Scott Pilgrim VS The World

Holiday.

Movie: Red

Movies

Movie: Robin Hood

Movie: Predators

Blog

May I Speak Freely?

Past,Present and Future? Where are you? Fantasy or Reality?

Guilt

Post No 501

Of ranting and gloomy night

Sigh

Happy Birthday Dad! :)

Doa.

Work

Saturday Night

A success or A failure.

Engagement and Love

:)

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Time

Barf